ha.. just woke up from a nap. i think i can sleep for a thousand years. been sleeping really late every weekday. went to sch for econs erp make up lecture today. sat there alone throughout the lecture, thats nothing. i think i can survive this whole 2 years alone. just like i completed 10 rounds on tues, i was like out of the few who ran. still i endured and completed. i guess the motivation in me outweighs anything else. even though i may be sitting with my classmates, i dont feel much of a difference. yes i see them everyday, they know i like to eat, like to gossip etc. but i dont think they know me well. neither do i know them well enough. no doubt its just another 6 months, but its really challenging to survive in school because of the fact that i dont feel bonded to anyone in sch. i'll put up a smile if u say hi to me, try my best to help if u ask for, but i dont know how to put this.. this might seem trivial, but i wonder how things would be like if i were to be in another college or maybe the arts class. or is it just our class? i almost sank into depression early this year, because i failed all my tests, feeling very stressed, very lonely.

and hin hiang forgot about the timing and she came to sch. then she didnt want to waste time so she offered to help me. that was nice i thought. if everyone were to be like her, then i would love school. its like u can talk to anyone in the class. spend time with anyone alone.but unfortunately this is not the case.. we dont talk about class chalets/movies/stayovers/trips to go after A levels. even meeting up for a meal or to mug seems so unachievable. maybe the culture here is different. please let everything be over. i'm suffering. i bet no one knows, even my family, they probably think im coping fine. even colleagues u talk to them when you're at work. nvm, i think college life has made me looked at things more positively, shaped me into a stronger person.

i dont feel like doing work but instead revise j1 stuffs. lol. its been long since i did tutorials. saw sam and her ah ma just now at tpy. went there after sch cos my family was around that area. JAYS didnt meet up this week, ohwell i shouldnt keep thinking of going out, esp when i got the mid years to conquer. guess everyone's preoccupied with projects etc, i definitely understand, being in a poly doesnt makes life any easier. whats more they are from demanding courses like mass communications. they got sch on sat as well, i think they are far worst off than me. we shall all buck up, could be meeting next week cos they gotta buy snacks from some factory at ajunied. maybe dad can fetch us there=D
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study study study!!