i felt damn noob.. haha. seriously doubt i will go for soccer again. so i was the goalkeeper today, and i think i did a bad job. like damn sian can, they must be thinking: "this stupid goalie so easy. can score from full court also."

sometimes things doesnt have to be explicit, you can feel it.

i was really damn stressed just now, playing with bryan's friends and our class. it's like u know somewhat your ability is limited, yet u hope u can just do your best..

it's not because im anti-social or what that i dont wanna go. its seriously i cant play and i feel horrible.

but i dont think it's unfair to go a few times la, since sometimes i "force" them to do things they dont like also, like bowling.. i dont want to not go and cause the rest not to go and make myself a spoilsport.

and the comment that"A levels are over already la" is very sensitive, its not as though its my mum which forbids me from going out or what. but nvm la, they dont know me anyway.

im dead beat now, going retail therapy tmr:) and dinner at grandma's. thurs going kbox. fri rest. sat gonna support aa at teenage icon. sunday msia. mon might be going swimming. tues rest or grocery shopping for bbq. weds bday dinner with family. thurs/fri chalet. thats all for now.