Han Rong's Blog

2010-06-21T10:06:00.005+08:00

so some people are just like that. I attribute it to differences in "their way of life" rofl..

Anyway ndp rehearsals are really draining so much off me. Somehow i do feel stressed. All i feel like is to just keep sleeping and sleeping like a dead log. It was so nice having my friends giving me a surprise on friday night, telling me there were downstairs, ready to pick me up for supper. But all i could say was "sorry, but i'm really tired". Haha i really take my hat off junliang and linqiang for going with them when they had rehearsal the next day too. Sorry bros, i from army, not commandos or ndu:/

Weekends are fine the way they always had been, i enjoyed them the way i always wanted it to be. Kbox was awesome! Felt that my singing has improved abit. Oh and i caught toy story with my family yesterday. Hmmm, what's next?

I want to stop thinking so much about EVERYTHING.

大多人都相同喜欢的只是爱情的脸孔。

2010-06-21T00:08:00.014+08:00

人的思想总会随着年龄而改变，每当被周围的朋友审问时，都会有一种哑口无言的感觉，不知如何回复他们是好。在比较无聊的这段期间，脑海里会搅着一些连我自己都想要找到答案的问题。

也许是受到社会上的压力吧，我就会对于是否有真正喜欢过一个人而感到困惑。有时候会觉得那个人是存在的，但有时又觉得是不是只想让自己好受。

我觉得自己对恋情的想法是较传统与实际的，我好佩服那些可以不断去为谈恋爱而认识新朋友的人，他们就是能这么轻易地爱上别人。为何他们能抱这一个可以再度回到梦幻故事里的信念呢？为何不因为之前的创伤而萎缩和害怕？

有很多时候会觉得人是现实的，女人谈恋爱寻找的是依靠和浪漫，男人谈恋爱是比较偏向满足自己的“需求”和面子。表面上多数的女人像男人在意的只是外表而不是内涵。

一个刚失恋的人能在短期再度谈恋爱表示的究竟是什么？人们只会口口声声说遇到的是真爱，难道真爱真的有那么容易遇上，还是那是因为释放对方而追求的新恋情？尽是如此，这新来的恋情不只是一种互相扶持或一方的一厢情愿而已吗？

感情本来就很懊恼，不同人都会有自己对它的定义吧。我当然也有自己的想法，但也觉得会渐渐改变。

爱情真的是因为爱一个人而爱吗？

2010-06-06T16:39:00.003+08:00

有时候就是会觉得自己心情很烦躁。

终于又熬过一个星期了。

Who says i can't differentiate between black and white?

2010-04-02T11:56:00.004+08:00

Now life's reverting back to normal, since those who went to india are back. I anticipate busier days ahead. Getting used to a totally different group of people, it's so good to visit the mess regularly to sing our hearts out(: The system there's damn pretty good and best of all it's free!!

Havent been catching up with jays, it has been months since we ever since last saw one another. On the other hand, i've been hanging out with my army friends alot.

And yeah i'm seeing myself improving day by day, in terms of my fitness. Sometimes hard work alone doesn't count, though i believe that one reap what he sows. I need that little streak of luck to pass my soc and ippt. It sucks hard when performance is measured by how one attain results and not the hard work that one puts in, but i'm relieved that we know that we're putting in the effort ourselves.

Life's gonna change again because the old specs are leaving, the entire company is changing, it's tiring keep having to get accustomed to different people and different habits. I hope nothing drastic changes.

Nothing else to update, except that i'm sticking to fass after visiting the open houses, the society's forever competitive for everything.

2010-02-16T21:11:00.003+08:00

To think that that was a thing of the past; it worries me at the rate how people can change (not for the better definitely). Army life's getting boring-er and boring-er day by day without all the laughters that i used to get from the RISK sessions. Yes, i miss level 5. I just want to ORD because i'm mentally tired. Tired from everything, screwing up my drills; feeling inferior; getting laughed at for being blur; living in such a political world where everyone pushes away whatever that they can.

At least for NOW, it's mario kart and teasing Glynsen. LOL. I guess it'll be back to pokemon when heart gold and soul silver's out.

Old friends are the best. Civillian life is so much better, carefree. I so want to enter the university, it's like my only motivation. I'll go for a makeover, dye my hair(hopefully), wear all my nice clothes to sch, mug hard for a high CAP, join NUS bowling, go crazy at orientations with the endless outings and finally find a gf. Wah heaven. I'll be doing everything that I've always wanted to by next year. Coolios.

CNY's pretty much the same just like every other year, so this year is not an exception. Still the same old people i see and the same number of angbaos. Lady luck's not with me this year, so i didn't exactly win in gambling=/

Looking forward to this sat; a pity not many's coming, and i didn't bother to organise a steamboat because everyone's so damn busy:(

SOC tmr, screw it for now, but i'm gonna pass it real soon, trust me, i will.

2010-01-30T10:55:00.004+08:00

HELLO! Haven't been on blogger for months already, decided to be back blogging here. These few weeks have been quite good, but i hope that the future weeks will be even better with all the cny visitings and ang bao collections! Anyway i guess it's high time for me to plan the steamboat at my house already. I've the practice of inviting my friends over for steamboat occasionally, and cny is a must!(: But i'm in a dilemma right now, because i have JAYS, rawsome awesome and perhaps my army friends.

Heading to sentosa tomorrow with xf, cw and the rest, finally a reunion(: Didnt catch up with a few of them ever since results were released last year.

Somehow i miss those days when we were furiously copying lecture notes. .

Time really flies, last time this period some of us was getting ready for enlistment/already enlisted, and now it's xf's and cw's turn.

I really hate how insensitive some people can be when they make their comments. So what if i can't get the correct timing and bang on the correct leg? So what if i learn things slower? That's because im not a very hands on person myself. Damn it. And i dont wish to argue with people who think i grow a single strand of gray hair every time i gets paranoid/uptight/worried. Just because im quiet doesn't mean i've no views of my own/doesn't mean i won't flare up because i appear to be a pushover, accept whatever that comes my way. NO (even though the world is never fair).

On another hand, sometimes i dont know what to say when i bring another person down with it, like during ICCT and when i affect the performance/overall score of my friend's:((

Visited the annual cny event at taka square, and i saw auntie and some familiar faces. Lol. I miss DKU10237650, tabulating the daily sales revenue, and rushing to the counter before the bell rings, like some auntie or typical kiasu singaporean haha.

Sian THT on monday, eeks. I never liked army, still i must be responsible for my actions and be answerable to my conscience. But after my observation for months, i can prove my mum wrong, because she thinks that no guys dislike army. That's not true.

Oh and i found a buyer for my mahjong set on ebay! Quite pleasantly shocked. Hahaha. But the transaction will only take place during like end feb. The buyer sounds sincere.

The world's really small.

2009-09-21T14:53:00.002+08:00

went to ikoi at miramar hotel yesterday. it wasnt that easy to locate that place afterall, since sam and yao got lost along the way. value and quality wise i would give it a 4 out of 5. heh quite worth it for 39bucks. it's good to have occasional buffets, especially with close friends. Anyway it was such a miracle that me and aa were so punctual, for once! Managed to meet up with glysen and ernie for dinner and inglorious basterds. The show was omg.. LOL! it totally wasted 152minutes of our time.

2009-09-13T19:35:00.003+08:00

what a lazy weekend! headed over to sam's house yesterday. taken photos with the same backdrop for like thrice already. hmmm so was discussing about where to go next week and we finally decided, after having done so much research. i spent like close to 2 hours omg. Intially we didnt want jap, we were like saying we wont visit kushinbo, yet we decided on ikoi, another similar restaurant which serves jap buffet. Hanabi could have been another choice, though. All around 40 bucks per pax.

At night went to watch final destination (3D) with my dad since everyone had to leave for dinner. Despite hearing how bad the movie was, i still persisted watching it. i felt that yes, the plot was very much expected, like the first 3 final destinations. But the 3D effects made the movie a little bit more exciting, imagine a screwdriver being thrown at you and stuff.

Visited the zoo today with grandma, cousin, cousin-in-law and their kids. My cousin signed up for the membership, so they get to travel all year round for free or something like that. it was 4 when we reached there, didnt had much time to do animal seeing. today was more like bringing the kids to the kids area to play water and i had kfc+ben and jerry's while they were having their fun.

Sian, the operators are officially split into our platoons now, and we have to shift our bunks. Sad, still haven gotten over it, but it was a pleasant surprise that we got to book out on friday since most of us was already prepared to stay.

2009-09-06T23:24:00.004+08:00

Alright a quick update here. Hmmm, life's pretty much the same and i'm enjoying it. been very busy during bookouts, that explains why i didnt had time to update. okay, went for the 1 for 1 ice cream buffet at swensens with hin hiang on friday. it wasn't good, honestly speaking. The unlimited scoops of ice cream available, however, enable friends to sit through together the entire day there. it's a good place for chilling and catching up.

AOH's been physically taxing, due to the bad weather and ginormous crowd, but gradually we got used to it. The little rains did save us a bit of rest though. Time where we had to endure the scorching sun flew by, with the heart to heart talks with glysen and gordon. i guess it doesn't take much for people to figure out that i'm a perfectionist.

August's gonna be a gruesome and tiring month for me. i hope it'll be over soon. Anyway i just went to watch xing guang 5 on youtube, after chancing upon an article in i-weekly which featured ai-jia. She's really good OMGGG.. i already knew she was when i watched CSS3, other than jia min, which already had many supporters in the beginning. i finished watching all 4 of her PK challenges against the current one million star 5 contestants. She has done singapore proud by winning the first 3. die die must watch! thumbs up for her!!

It's time for me to be back chasing xing guang when im home. i didnt watch xing guang 4. and i only knew about it when it was xing guang 3. LOL. okay, goodnight everyone(:

2009-08-17T20:47:00.002+08:00

The good thing about runs is that it keeps us healthy. AHM is over!! Although i ran only 10km, it was refreshing. but i completed it in 1hour1min. i seriously need to raise my stamina.

after that went for brunch with the rest and then it was kbox with glysen.

had steamboat for dinner at my place with JAYS(: they stayover-ed, with the exception of yao who has some FYP presentation to do the next day.

at 10plus headed to kovan superbowl for bowling and arcade. managed to catch a bus to SR interchange. bought milo icecream.

in the noon today went to watch UP with jere and sam. aa had to leave to accompany her mom for some stuff. My retest's on wednesday. hope everything turns out fine. ppl wish me luck on tues. please i need to pass badlyyyyy

this week was quality time spent with favourite people. nothing beats the best company in the world(: it's the most relaxing to be with JAYS for me. it feels so natural and carefree, no worries of hiding my true self or whatsoever.

2009-08-09T22:55:00.007+08:00

celebrated sam's birthday at hardrock cafe last sat, hope you had an awesome time with us!

yesterday went for singout 09 finals at DBS auditorium. some of the competitors were really good, it was quite clear cut who the winners were when they sang. i mean the judges can tell the moment they started singing the first few lines. the thing i think they had in common-confidence. well, aa you tried your best. fast song isn't your strength so just take it as an experience! hmmm. the guest performers were fucking good. their singing is like flaweless. jia min, khim and last yr's singout champion. it's damn demoralising to see them sing, it just make me lose passion in wanting to learn singing. seriously sometimes i think my singing techniques are screwed, i cant seem to control my singing. i tend to use falsetto a lot when i hit the high notes.

today was family day, watched jack neo's "where got ghost?" very typical singaporean film, didnt really like it. but it was lame enough for me to laugh at some parts. had sun with moon for dinner. the sushi damn zai.

finally resting home tmr. yay stayover next week after AHM because mon off in lieu(:

2009-08-01T12:23:00.005+08:00

been spending alot on food lately. last sunday caught up with pearlyn. went shokudo at raffles and then went to have durian pastries at goodwood park hotel. it was shiokness. durian crepe was the ultimate. intially i thought it would be good to have the buffet instead, but guess sharing the pastries was enough to bloat me up. anyhow the buffet doesnt include the better durian pastries. yesterday, after bookout went bowling at some club, then had sushi tei at gardens with calvin, joel and junhao. i like the ambience there. but i didnt expect that we had to remove our shoes to enter the second storey. i thought only typical jap restaurants do that. but at sushi tei? hmmm.

oh yes, and on thurs, i went to mess. it's somewhere in our unit where we can chill. i sang a few songs. it was good releasing stress. later going off to grandma house and then meeting JAYS at night. most probably heading off to hardrock cafe to celebrate sam's bday. yay.

2009-07-26T01:19:00.004+08:00

This is by far one of my most well spent weekend during bookout. just came back from bowling with my family. it's been quite awhile since i last bowled with my own ball. even the holes have become too tight for my fingers. it sucks when i cant control my bowling ball after getting so used to playing with house ball. today met up with jays, but yao couldnt join us. walked around ION and tangs. My attempt at finding suitable gifts for my mum's and sis's birthday was fruitless. ION's damn nice, but it's super duper high end. the design of the shopping mall was well thought of, i think it's creative for a high end shopping mall . me and aa were lost when we wanted to find our way to taka to meet jerm and sam. i felt so paiseh when i approached the people who were providing their service as a guide for the newly built shopping centre.

had soup spoon and shaker fries. it wasn't filling. after that went to sam's house to nua for a short while. and we took pictures. my facebook's finally uploaded with photos LOL. it felt so long ever since i took photos with jays.

it has been a depressing week for me. i need to erase all my negative thoughts from my mind. i still cant find a answer to my own questions.

2009-07-19T10:17:00.006+08:00

finally started my driving course. it was somewhat not too bad, i wasn't nervous surprisingly. match that with how flustered i will get handling weapons or going for any range. u see the contrast?

but i almost endangered my instructor's life.(cause i didn't counter-steer) he was in deep shock.
hope I'll get the hang of it soon. night driving on monday!

fri went chomps with platoon mates. didn't manage to meet sam and alvin cause i booked out late. and i didnt know my dad waited 3hours for me outside camp cause i didnt contact him.

yesterday went bowling with aa and eddie. didnt bring my ball, so i had to make do with the house ball. bowled only 2 games. it was good. i had quite some strikes. the feeling is so awesome. but my score wasnt good because i missed my spares. and i had 1,- which wasted my strike on my second game.

game 1-148, game 2-121

it seems like aa's getting hooked on bowling because she thinks that she has talent for it. haha i quote jeremy: "must be she see eddie like, she watch narnia with eddie she say very nice, last time still tell me so boring."

that means more bowling to come!

looking forward to the coming weekends because i already have plans!

2009-07-03T23:53:00.005+08:00

credits to yiling's blog

ECP last last saturday. taken with yiling's new camera(: didnt take much pictures that day. the 2 hour cycle was quite tiring. i remembered it was worst when i went with junliang,xf etc. i went crazy. hahaha. and after that i fell sick after so much chiong-ing. didnt manage to watch transformers with them last week and meet up with mimi and co. yeah next time can count on AL to organise more outings!

finally home. arghhh missing civillian life alot. anyway i just survived a week in camp. last week stayed home for almost the entire week. quite tired from ns. the 5km today was alright. luckily i still can run abit despite being a zero fighter. so many people to catch up with, but so little time:(

went lot1 just now, had ajisen. i still prefer the old paiku ramen, now the new one sucks.

good night!

2009-06-28T19:44:00.003+08:00

alright short update!

in case, u didnt know, i had high fever, possibly due to lack of rest. like my mom said, i chionged too much outings during the block leave. the doctor diagnosed me with lung infection. i've almost fully recovered, so dont worry. this week has been awfully slack for me cos i spent a week just resting at home. nevertheless, falling sick is not one alternative one should turn to, just to escape one's responsiblities by skipping work, sch etc. thanks for all those who wished me a speedy recovery! im gonna book in soon.

and yes, congrats to aa for getting into the finals for sing out 2009! All of us knew you had the talent to get in. ha. well, guess i wont be going out that often since im vulnerable to the h1n1 virus spreading around. still, i hope to meet jays and may n co when i can!

2009-06-21T21:14:00.007+08:00

the type of effect a 600 plus 12.1 MP camera can achieve. haha.

lennon and me came across this yesterday. FIRST REACTION: dont u think that the girl looks like... joanne? i thought so too because i already saw that. lol!!!!!! 85% resemblance.

today officially marks the end of my block leave:( very soon, army life will resume for me.

really enjoyed this block leave alot. i felt so carefree, just like after A's, going out almost every single day.

if i can still recall:

10/6-timbre with section mates
11/6-jerm's house with JAYS

12/6-bottle tree park with family

13/6-14/6-malaysia/KL

15/6-ran 4km at stadium, watched ghosts of gf past with my sis.

16/6-more than 6hours of prawning from 8plus till 330am

17/6-4 games of bowling with emperor lol.

18/6-stayover at jerm's with the usual, watched taken and bride wars.

19/6-shopping

20/6- went ecp with may, yl and lennon. cycled for 2.5hours. ichiban sushi and streetbasketball at parkway. explored orchard central.

tireddd is all i can describe myself to be. anyway i was so over the moon when i checked the bmtc posting order! reason being, i wasn't posted to reccee trooper! i'll update the next time when i book out to fill you guys more with what my vocation exactly is. it reads AFV operator.

circle line's really convenient for me, sr=>toa payoh approx 15mins. didnt manage to get anything cheap after the topman sale, but still i bought a pair of shoes and boardshorts.

BYE, science centre and heaven's loft next week hopefully.

2009-06-12T23:08:00.008+08:00

my failed attempt at being scary. LOL. 4th/6th year of friendship and still counting. bestest friends ever, my happiest moments were in secondary sch.

wide grin smiley=D

section mates.

hello. quite abit to update here.

yes, i finally POP-ed. i've gotten a lot of blisters after the 24 click. apparently, the pace was alright and everyone completed it, but the blisters made me limp throughout the last part of the march.

mummy and grandma came for my POP parade. they said we did a great job. At night, met up with some of my section mates. Had dinner at lau pa sat and went to timbre for a drink. the bad was good. met sgt adi on our way to timbre and thus it explains why we took a photo.

yesterday, went back to collect SGC. met jays and headed to jerm's house. watched half of marley and me. after that, went to azooroo, somewhere near my house, for prawning with my family. me and my sis caught a yabby each, it looks like some lobster/prawn species lol.

today, the original plan was to go JB with my family and my cousin plus his family. BUT if failed because noone realised that my grandma's passport's expiry date is nearing in less than 6 months. so we couldnt go. we then went to bottle tree park(if i got the name correctly).

2 of my nieces went for the kampong fishing thingy. could see that they really enjoyed themselves. even me, my grandma and my 33 year old cousin helped to catch those longkang fishes lol. i think it's good to explore different places of singapore sometimes, instead of visiting town like every week, following the GSS and movie craze. it just feels so relaxing to be out of army. i think it's fun to bring kids along to croc, fish farms etc, their inquisitve nature amazes me so much.

tmr going to JB with just my mom,dad and sis. gonna stay for a night there. so i'll be back on sunday.

My plans for next week:

1)outing with may, lennon and yl
2)prawning on tues night with family
3)follow mom to do her stuff, family dinner with dad's extended family then stayover at jeremy's house on thurs.

that should be it. kind of sick of going out.

2009-06-06T23:03:00.006+08:00

i'm gonna have my passing out parade in 4 days. i'm so overwhelmed with emotions. i dont know what awaits me after BMT, which unit i get posted to, the kind of people i will get to meet.

Feelings about BMT:

i think that i've learn to become much more independent already. That's definitely a harvest. BMT wasnt exactly that good for me, especially for the first few weeks. It was hell. imagine getting stressed up over every single thing (i think i have more strands of gray hair now), getting flustered when things go wrong and fucking get punished. it's not about the punishment part, but it sucks when a sergeant dont fucking put himself in my shoes or recognise the fact that everyone is different. it's just like studies and everything else, not everyone is good in that particular aspect. it takes time.

JUST because the previous batch wasn't as bad as this does not mean that all future batches will continue to be, i mean even if u lose ur passion to lead, that's ur problem, if u can't make ur passion to lead exceed what u gonna expect of the worst from recruits, then u suck thumb la. i'm not saying that you shouldnt punish them or whatever. but u are damn MR SARCASTIC can.

If i could replay time back, i would definitely give my best in BMT. i mean after now that i've become more aware of my surroundings.

it wasnt easy for me to adapt to army life. it could be cultural shock like what someone said and i dont deny it.

i can say that since young i was often spoonfed, i always relied on my parents, i didnt even had the guts to ask for directions at the customer service counters. As a result, i didnt had exposure to the outside world and i faced many diffculties in the intial phase.

im so glad that i almost made through BMT, since there's 4 more days to POP. it may be easy to many, but not for me. Range and fieldcamp was the worst throughout my BMT. i've really got to thank my platoon and section mates for helping me in one way or another. appreciate all the things that has been done. (things like getting my water bottle filled, taking charge of the bunk while i was reporting sick or away, helping me with my LBV and smart 4, waking me up early knowing that my movements are slow, carrying my fieldpack and setting up the basha when i fell out during sitest and in fieldcamp.)

Army life was a whole new lot of experience for me, at times when im blur in school, i get laughed at, at the very most for being "cute". i didnt undergo what i did in army, perhaps im more academically inclined, i mean i didnt face that much diffculties in studying. neither did i had problems with my socialising with people.

To speak the truth, i felt very lonely in army, especially when my section mates talk about games, manga and when they play chess. i always didnt had common topics with them. All i did whenever i had free time was either to text people or listen to my chinese songs on my ipod. i didnt open up much although i still talk. i know im boring when im in bunk. That's probably because i'm with people that i'm not close with. i dont smile, i can be very quiet. but that's me. im definitely not that boring if you know me well enough.

As a matter of fact, im supposed to be the section outing i/c. No1 mentions anything about this, or even getting a gift for our section commander. It's like being the bunk i/c in name, i have no absolute control or power. it's just another round of hi-bye friends i guess.
i've learn alot of things in army.

1)the cruelties and reality of life
2)how selfish people can be, even i am.
3)how some sergeants really care, just like how the teachers in SR were.
4)alot about human nature.

Basically that's about it. it could be psychological but i feel that i've grown up and that i didnt waste my time in BMT.

2009-05-30T23:48:00.024+08:00

Im back to blogger, not sure whether it's for good or not! Initially i signed up for LJ because i have friends who have locked entries. Plus, i get to retain a little of my privacy too since i can restrict my locked entries to people i trust. The good thing about blogger is that it has a chatbox! Now people can resume tagging=D

Civillian life has been really really gooood. For the past 2 months or so i have been preoccupied with all of these when i book out: Bowling, singing karaoke, movies, retail therapy and eating! Of course all these would not have been made possible without my beloved friends and family.

Time flies even though i've entered NS for only less than 3 months. It took me so so super long to adapt to life in NS. i wonder how life after BMT will be like.

Somehow, im still undecided about uni. All of the offers appear so tempting to me. i've been hearing things here and there. So yeah..

Went topone with chongwei, may and yiling just now. First time there! it's cheap to sing there. The system there was alright though the quality of the MVs wasnt that good. After that went Astons for dinner and pearlyn joined us there. Friggin queued 2 damn hours including the wait for the food to come. Didnt take any photos earlier on, no1 was in the right mood i guess. Everyone's like troubled or stressed over stuffs and no1 spells it out, it's just too personal and inconvenient perhaps.

Lennon appeared after talking to pearlyn's friend whom pearlyn bumped into on her way back home; after which lennon's name was mentioned in a conversation between pearlyn's friend's friend and pearlyn's friend. Then pearlyn asked if it was lennon koh and she talked to him and finally he came to look for us. Lol!! Took train back home with lennon and chongwei. Had some chat about NS. ZZZ. Didnt really had time to catch up.

Haven been meeting up with JAYS ever since aa's and yao's birthday. Guess everyone's busy busy busy. I'll defiinitely make time after i POP okay! I dont even have much time to shop for GSS. i need clothes to fill up my wardrobe cause i can't fit into any of my jeans or shorts now. Simply love sales, so far i've gotten myself a shirt and 2 bottoms. but sigh, my financial resources are depleting.

Caught angels and demons yesterday with samantha and alvin, followed by dinner at botak jones with alvin, huua and my sis. Before that went bowling with chongwei and his friend at kovan. i think the movie is nice, feel like reading the book after watching the movie. Btw i never had the endurance to finish a book at all. So if i can finish one book after getting so excited over it, it means that i really love that book.

That's all, i'm tired. Update soon enough again.

2009-03-11T15:11:00.002+08:00

i've temporary moved to lj! please teach me how to use lj cut if u know lol.

http://hanrong.livejournal.com/

Because reality hurts.

2009-03-07T22:50:00.005+08:00

We all saw for ourselves what we reaped. well i can only comfort myself that i have tried my best.

i'm gonna enlist so soon, next fri. so being a good boy, i spent my day with my family for yesterday and today. went prawning. caught only 4 prawns in 2 hours. lol.

cant wait for kushinbo with JAYS!!. it's my last chance to become a glutton. LOL. I really need to exercise so so badly. swim and run. getting more unfit and fat.

5 MORE DAYS TO THE END OF FREEDOM.

2009-03-05T12:45:00.003+08:00

IM BACK!!! someone thought i was hospitalized or something cause i was down with shingles the other time. haha. then we talked on the phone for quite long, more than a hour. i seldom talk on the phone de.argh! my hp bill came and it exceeded 100. omg.. i talked using house phone la. lol. the last 2 weeks of feb were filled with outings, caught slumdog with jays and underworld with cw,may and lennon. also met up with cw and emily. we went bowling and kbox. i bowled 8 games! total addiction, after having not bowled for ages. my scored sucked, i think my avg was 100. hmm, on valentines went to minds cafe, had a great hell of fun too screaming like nobody's business. thanks for the gift wenyao, may and yiling!(: the letters were so sweet. haha.

and our last outing was sentosa. haven been there since sec 2 i guess. that's freaking long already. had always wanted to go there. beach volleyball rocks la, although whoever that teamed with me lost lol.

other than that, have been shopping alot with my grandma. it's alternate days shopping or outings. then at home, it's ch8 all the way. most of the shows have been aired before, but i just enjoy watching again. had a bad bad quarrel with my grandma. omg. i cant believe i was mad when im angry. saying things that im on the verge of emotional breakdown and i need a psychiatrist. i think no1 will imagine how was it like, my tone was bad and i was aggressive. but i know im not unreasonable. still, it sucks for me to be so insensitive when i'm a sensitive person myself. it's like i only spare a thought for myself la. im so gonna break down if tmr's bad. no mood to blog already. i just want time to pass faster.

Living life to its fullest.

2009-02-10T00:20:00.009+08:00

back!! CSS3 was qute okay... went to watch it with aa,cw,lennon,sx, samantha(lennon's j1 classmate), samantha's sister and winghim. thanks for the tickets samantha! it's too much of a coincidence. hahaha. we're like all connected. lennon's close pri sch friend turns out to be shi xuan which is my sec sch classmate and shi xuan's friend is chongwei's secondary sch classmate. me,aa and shixuan are sec sch classmates. me, lennon and cw are j2 classmates. lennon's j1 classmate is someone from bowling whom i've seen before. in other words, my friend's friend will definitely be a friend of your friend's friend or something. lol. the best thing is that the 5 of us live so near each other! thanks samantha for the tickets(:

it's really different listening them sing live and watching them sing live. jiamin's performance was the most stable. her voice very sweet, she's one of the best in CSS3. saw clara from CSS1, cw say she fat but me and aa think she very very pretty.

i dont know whether if the other judges are unattentive or they chose to let it pass. Peter Tan(aa's laoshi) pointed out jarod's swallowing at inappropriate times. because it's really weird, like he not enough qi. then the other judges didnt say, i thought that they should tell him at least for him to improve. actually i think he knows, because when u sing, u know where u go wrong and stuff yourself.

after that, had dinner with aa,cw,lennon and sx at toa payoh. Beatty really holds a lot of memories for us. Our conversations mostly revolve around secondary sch life, about our teachers and our classmates. i really miss secondary sch alot alot alot. i never fail to laugh when i was in secondary sch.

it was good catching up with shi xuan! and she said i slimmed down quite abit.

im glad that cw can mix and mingle around with some of my friends and our rawsome coolsome. because we're treated like shit and as insignificant in sch. life in 2009 seems so much interesting and better!

i just wanna rest for a few days before the outing craze starts again on fri, sat and monday.

2009-02-09T14:25:00.001+08:00

wo yao kuai le by AA. one of my fav songs by zhang hui mei! definitely worth watching!

2009-02-09T13:07:00.006+08:00

i woke up with quite a bad bodyache, to the extent that i can't continue sleeping despite being so tired. california fitness yesterday was gooood!! the momentum to exercise is really there, because everyone's exercising and looking good in their hot bods lol, it makes me wanna lose more weight at least. but having lesser weight isnt necessarily an indicator of how healthy one is, because there are percentage fats and bone mass and stuff which makes one's fitness more conclusive. at the same time, we were like some newbies trying to read up on how to use and operate the machines while everyone else were like busying working out lol!!

haha like what pearlyn said, that place isnt a playground. nevertheless, it's a good experience to know how a professional gym is like. it's just damn cool like how occasionally it's being aired in singapore dramas. after the enjoyment and a nice bath comes the psychoing part. there's no free lunch in the world. so we have to go through a whole series of orientation, survey and Q and A session. we were stuck there for almost 2 hours. it was a bad struggle. haha. i would have joined if my parents were supportive of it and if i had a partner to join. plus, i have other constraints since i have only one month left. well. nvm. haha. i can always join next time when i'm financially independent!

after that, me and chongwei quickly rushed home. when i reached home, it was 6 already. and i haven had the first meal of the day. damn it. super hungry. my mood wasnt very good when my mum mentioned that that's a waste of money, just like how chong wei argued that we can exercise at neighbourhood parks/stadiums or just by ourselves. i mean if she were to be supportive of it, i wouldnt have mind not joining. when it comes to issues like these which concerns a big sum of money, my mom always brainwash me. i dont disagree with the fact that her thinking isnt wrong, that it's more practical to save money for university instead at the moment. i hate this. sometimes i just feel that these issues makes our relationship turn sour. im just too practical and materialistic. yes, im aware of that.

was quite happy to see all of them. aa,alvin,yhih huaa and xuefeng! because i haven caught up with them since? FOREVER? lol! had a sumptuous meal although im only limited to fish and vegs lest my scary shingles acts up. after that, slacked around awhile in bed and we played 21 to kill boredom. yhih huua was busy doing her catching up with jeremy i think using skype. took only 2 pathethic group photos.

SAT 14 FEB / ZOUKVERY XOXO, 10PM-12MN

To celebrate Valentine’s Day, Zouk is throwing Very XOXO, the first of the over-the-top themed party series for the year! Forget planning a Valentine’s dinner and movie date and all that conventional stuff. Not just for the couples out there, Very XOXO is about celebrating love all around, whether for your other half, friends or family. Grab a partner (BF, BFF, it’s one and the same!) and show your love. Have your love fortunes told, get matching slogan tattoos and watch the ultimate showdown as couples or friends battle out their mutual knowledge in pairs. Head on down in matching outfits with your partner and you’ll be entitled to free entry and a drink on the house!

so this is it, told sam and rawsome coolsome about it already. then it'll be zoo/sentosa tentatively on the 16th since may has her genting trip. as for more outings, we'll discuss after we meet up again. lol. watching campus superstar 3 later!! my favourites will be singing later. haha. jarod,ai jia and jiamin(pearlyn, not huimin okay. lol!).

The first lunar eclipse of 2009 is one of four such events during the year. The first three eclipses are penumbral while the last (on Dec. 31) is partial. The Feb 09 event is the deepest penumbral eclipse of the year with a penumbral magnitude of 0.899. It will be easily visible to the naked eye as a dusky shading in the northern half of the Moon. The times of the major phases are listed below.Penumbral Eclipse Begins: 12:38:46 UT
Greatest Eclipse: 14:38:15 UT
Penumbral Eclipse Ends: 16:37:40 UT

i dont know what is all these, i just know that there will be a eclipse later on. im bombarded with too much information for all sorts of things. my brain's saturated already.

2009-02-08T00:12:00.003+08:00

we were supposed to meet auntie may to return our uniforms. and all of us were late for 1hour plus. that's partially also because she chose tiong bahru as the meet-up place. that's for her convenience and not ours can. though that shouldnt be an excuse for us to be late, but it's still quite typical for us lol. she was like omg look at the time now and the time we're supposed to meet. and may said she will be super late! poor her waited for us close to an hour. btw, auntie may and may are 2 different persons. HAHAHA

then after that may lennon and chongwei had lunch at burger king. i cant take heaty stuff la, so i didnt. we headed to town because may has to work at prestat. then me chongwei and lennon were like walking around town. went taka paragon and wisma. lennon bought his AX stuff again. this time round, his belt. omg we're like shopping every 2-3days a week. this is seriously crazy.

yl came to meet us after she was done meeting her friend.
to salvage the hole's that being burnt, lennon suggested coming over to my house for dinner.
we cooked pasta. it was quite delicious haha, though the kitchen's a mess. we should have added water to the cabonara sauce. then i was chatting online to samantha and i got caught redhanded by them BEANSPROUTING, a term coined by chongwei and lennon. haha. and for self-defence, i scratched chongwei(by accident). lol!

gonna hit the gym early tmr. california fitness with chongwei may and yiling! then steamboat with yhih huua and co=D

2009-02-04T14:34:00.007+08:00

first and foremost, THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR THE CONCERN. im better compared to yesterday. managed to sleep alil here and there at least today. mum took urgent leave to accompany me and bring me around to see docs.

on monday, we went shopping at vivo, then grocery shopping followed by steamboat, playing cards, camwhoring and watching dvds. i wanted to watch shutter but lennon and chongwei scary cat. hahaha. so in the end we didnt. but im sure those on sunday WILL.

lol! and huimin thought that my mum was my elder sister. omg. i think is because i look too old, not because she look young. thats bad. lol!!!!!!!

very happy to read may's entry. it's amazing how fast we progress as a clique despite knowing each other for only a month. sometimes it's not the period of time that determines the outcome of a friendship. nevertheless, we do need time to know each other better. we met up for like 4 times in less than 2 weeks. haha. crazy us. if i didnt had this rash thing, i would have met them for shopping yesterday, then it would be 3 days continously we're meeting. lol.

it's even more amazing that yiling is in my clique now. like seriously! in the past, i barely exchanged sentences with her in sec3/4. then it was during outings with jeremy that we met up etc. so we're not considered close, not in my opinion. i've never expected to be close with her. haha.

have to go vegetarian this week. steamboat is still on for u guys(yhih huua,xf, aa,alvin,sam etc)!(: i cant eat but i get to play with you all xD!!

cant wait to meet up with JAYS. and zoo/sentosa with awesome coolsome. lol. may came up with this name.

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2009-02-03T09:25:00.002+08:00

If you have shingles, also known as kayap in Malay or `snake` in Chinese, it could be that you once had chicken pox but the virus was not totally eliminated and has now reappeared with new symptoms.These include burning pain, itching and stinging sensation on the skin that later turns into an irritating rash.

omggggggg. im down with this stupid shit. =((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( i didnt slept well the previous night and i didnt slept a wink yesterday. and i visited the clinic myself. guess what? the antibotics cost $133 and including consultation it was $150.50

haiya damn suay man. this kind of thing always happens to me. the previous time it was allergic reaction and my whole body had rashes. i didnt go sch for 3 weeks in sec 3 or 4. now this, tell me how lucky i am.

i didnt want my parents to worry. i was like waiting till they go to work so i can go clinic myself. but in the end still called them to inform them. they must be worried sick. haizzzzzz.......

damn pain and itchy. i dont know why is it called snake la. my mum said must kill the "snake", otherwise it will spread. and can die one lor. omggggggggggggggggggggg.

2009-02-02T03:37:00.004+08:00

cabbed home just after kbox. it's pretty tiring for most of us i think. my throat's hurting like mad now. sang too much female songs. lol! yesterday i slept at 1 and woke up at 345am. went to check out jurong fishery port with my parents. bought pomfrets and prawns and did marketing after that. (for steamb0at) actually it's something like a big wet market, where all the fish suppliers/hawkers get their fishes from. but the difference is that they dont remove the stuff inside the fish for u. like all the bloody organs. u cant smell any fishy stench but your legs will bound to get wet once u walk around.

back to kbox. we took hell lots of photos, but mostly incomplete because cw looks so outcast. and lennon took so many single shots by himself that he can form a collage with it. we couldnt finish the songs despite singing for 7 hours. the selected songs forever exceed 30 one. lol. oh yeah, we bought yusheng from MOF and lao-ed together, the sashimi rocks!!
and thanks chongwei for the pizza hut treat, for the pizza and spicy drumlets.

bet everyone's in bed already. only here i am blogging away. meeting them at vivo for some quick shopping and then steamboat=DD

JAYS's really busy with sch, hope we can meet up soon. haven met up for quite long already. and sunday there'll be another steamboat with yhih huua, aa, sam etc. wenyao and jeremy u can join us if u all want!

2009-01-31T17:08:00.007+08:00

the day started with me meeting chongwei and lennon for shopping. we shopped around marina square and raffles city. lennon bought one t-shirt and he went around looking for clothes that he's intending to buy soon.

after that, went to gamble at cousin's house yesterday. i think i didnt win or lose, all thanks to "in between". initially i was like winning 20over for blackjack.

that game's really fast, either u lose alot or win alot. but the thing is even if u "pass", u still lose the $2 per round once the pool has less than a certain sum of money. mom didnt know how to play and she stared at me when i said i knew how to. the kind of stare like: shouldnt you be the refined type. how come you're like a habitual gambler that know all these games? but i think most people nowadays know how to play, since it's quite easy to pick up. come on, its ONCE A YEAR. do you think i play everyday?

the sickening thing was that it ended at 1am yesterday. damn early. then had to wait for dad and grandma to finish their mahjong. so it's plain 2 hours of waiting. had a little talk with one of my cousin's friend. reached home at 4am.

and the common topic people always ask me is about stuffs like when u enlist, can get into uni anot? i hate this totally. it's always like this because everyone think i belong to the "smarter" category just because i appear very hardworking/stressed to them because of my white hair. UNFAIR. it's like misleading. they always "i'm sure you'll do well" zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

okay going for dinner soon at aunt's place. then it'll be movie with JAYS at great world.
then i will have only 2 hours of sleep before i head to some fish market
or some market at jurong that opens at 4. it's those kind where hawkers have to rise and shine so early to buy fresh fish i think. i shall accompany my parents there since i've nothing better to do and of course because my favourite food is fish!! actually i've an ulterior motive, that is to burn a hole out of their pockets. HAHA. i hope i can survive 3 days of sleeping so little. i cant hold out any longer already, maybe we wont even get to go to the fish market. because we're super pigs that sleep like a log. lol!

the world is so beautiful.

2009-01-29T01:08:00.006+08:00

spent my day with AA and WW peeps. had alot alot of fun. took quite some photos. maybe i shall update tmr.

really quite bored at home. i miss work i miss work i miss work:( i would have said i miss sch i miss sch i miss sch instead only if i had such wonderful ppl as my classmates.

it was a long day out with them. i met chongwei first, and for once, we were the earliest. LOL. everyone else was late. pearlyn and hui min came 30mins later, emily 1hour and lennon 1h30mins. met at bugis, had mos, walked around abit at bugis street. everything there was quite cheap, i didnt know. it's like it only cost $15 for a pair of shorts. at zara or esprit, it would have cost at least 59.90-79.90.

we wanted to go haji lane but but we felt that there's a high possibility that it would be closed. so we went town to meet yiling and may after their interview. me and emily shared cold cut trio at subway while the rest were just chatting away, relishing the good old times at work.

at fareast, we went into stage, i didnt know that such a shop existed. it was xiao zhu's brand if i got it correctly. after that we were clueless about where to go next. we then settled on astons for dinner. it was the first time i sat at the open space area, where there was no air con. it just felt like we were classmates, lunching together after school. there's just this sense of unitedness, the kind of feeling i have when im with JAYS and a few others. we were the loudest there, and im so pissed i just cant get the hang of the game in lennon's phone.

emily left to meet her cj classmates, so she didnt take a photo with us. those photos were mostly taken while we were waiting for the movie to start. we played foosball to kill time, every other person is lanning there, except for us. i think we're like in our own world, making so much noise, and getting so excited over that ball. lol!!

and for the movie, it sucked. it wasnt horror. it was worst than meet the spartans. it's just gruesome and gory and super digusting, i didnt even know what the storyline was. i dont understand why must the bunch of kids chase their life after that couple. btw that movie was eden lake and it was m18. i bet emily would have screamed her lungs out if she had watched with us. lol!!! the movie finished at 2315 and i reached home at 2355.

cant wait to K and sing for now(:

HAPPY CNY!!!

2009-01-27T22:25:00.003+08:00

those were taken on the last day of my work=( it's so freaking sad to bid them goodbye. i would rather stand 13hours a day, having them for company. all of us went through thick and thin throughout the 17days. a pity we didnt have a complete photo taken with lennon, emily and huimin. anyway we're meeting tmr for shopping and overnight kbox on sunday. and ZOO soon please(:

hello my house's freaking empty, anyone can feel free to come my house for visting or steamboat=D

JAYS, we need to meet up soon. and thanks for dropping by while i was working((:

2009-01-25T02:46:00.003+08:00

WORK'S FINALLY OVER(:

we've graduated from andrew and anderson! we all got paid! and i've received what i think i should deserve. though the rate's one of the lowest, but the absolute amount earned is significant, considering the fact that i've work 200 hours for 18 days.

after work, we went to buy tickets for inkheart. chilled awhile at kfc before entering the cinema, caught the 1130 show with chong wei, lennon, yiling, emily and pearlyn. it was quite good. after the movie, daddy fetched us home and pearlyn took a cab back home.

i'll miss
1)working with my colleagues; coming up with nonsenical stuffs; being teased at and teasing people; laughing at the silliest things, sneaking food and eating them at the counter.

2)getting used to work. it's like a routine already
79413 and 10237550's still in my head.
79833 and 10238905 also k.

3)the responsibilities i have to shoulder; auntie may calling me almost every other day to ask about the stocks, whether there's sufficient samples and if i've taken money. i feel important to them.

4)playing HIDE AND SEEK, rushing to give the float and daily revenue.

5)the environment and all the friendly people around there.

gd nite everyone! really cant wait to meet up with JAYS and my newly made friends!

happy new year to all in advance!!!

you reap what you sow.

2009-01-22T23:56:00.003+08:00

im officially left with 2 days of work. how cool! 2 more days to enjoyment and freedom. it's time to do some shopping and let other people serve me already. 16days of being a promoter was alright, it wasnt too tough nor easy. i think retail suits me much more than admin.

that means our pay's coming in. hmmm. im really wondering how much we'll get paid in the end. 2 more days and we must really chionggg. i'll definitely miss work for sure because of my collegaues=( time can pass really fast with them already, it beats being all alone at home, thinking of what to do, where to buy my lunch and worrying over NS, A levels, everything.

we're catching a midnight movie on the last day of work! yay. i think i've only like went clubbing or stay overnight with JAYS and huua.

oh yeah, an auntie asked me the question which many would. and that is about my premature graying of hair. at the very least, i thought that she was polite, and she asked me that only after getting to know me. it didnt touch my raw nerve or anything, im like used to that already. of course, i yearn for black shiny hair, but i can do nothing about that. she was like: did u visit a doctor? could it be that you're suffering from some vitamin deficiency or lacking in some nutrients?

i replied: i wouldnt rule out that possibility, but my first strand of gray hair was spotted when i was 8 or 9 years old. gradually, over time, it grew more and more. it could be hereditary lor.

oh yes, and one customer thought i was the boss's son. wyman de hai zi! HAHAHA.

pearlyn, you're as nonsensical as chong wei.! haha.

2009-01-21T00:23:00.004+08:00

work today was quite satisfying. sales was very good, for a weekday. we did better than sunday. was very stressed when it came to the counting of money. i hate shortage. damn the cashier machine. i think i figured out what could be the reason already. i mean a shortage is questionable, if i were the boss, i might not pursue the matter, but this could be fishy. moreover, money itself is a very senstive topic, sometimes people can accuse you when it comes to moral and ethics.

shereen was around the area with her cousin. so she dropped by to say hello and she bought a bottle of prawn roll for her mom! that was nice i thought.

actually working with the aunties can be nice on one hand, and on the other, lots of gossips are inevitable. im so sorry i hurt you yiling, maybe i'm too impulsive, i shouldnt have blurted it out. i dont know what i'm doing myself. i was like asking pearlyn if i should tell you and she said no, and yet i told you in the end.

some customers are really nice, they ask about our pay per hour, usually out of curiousity, and they will like wish us happy working and receiving more bonus. or some will feedback to us. one said that working in a pub can fetch us at least 7 an hour. i mean interacting with customers makes us hear all sorts of things or witness different scenarios that can happen between a consumer and a supplier. i hate people getting shortchanged (which could be negligence on our part).

thats all, today started well but ended not-so-well.

i hope i wont hurt any more people.

2009-01-15T22:49:00.005+08:00

working is awesome!!!!!!!!! despite having to stand for extremely long hours (9-12 hours a day) and including travelling time etc (10-13hours),

because i have crazy friends who do crazy stuff together!! we can smile and laugh anytime i find anything funny. even the pink lady calls us si da tian wang, because we're always so happy and noisy. we say hello to everyone we see. "harrow", "hello kitty" and all the stupid things we can come up with.

the bosses are not too bad actually, it's just that our pay are lower and we cant skive when they're here. and i hate moving and packing the stocks.

but the taka management seriously suck to the core, their words are not just vicious but ridiculous. they can say anything they want. because we have to submit our daily earnings to them, so its intrinsically singaporean to be KIASU. so everyone would start hiding and preparing to dash and queue once it strikes 930. yesterday, the taka people caught us and said " it's dangerous to move around with few thousands dollars, if customer robs you, you'll be held responsible"

it's like wtf you let customers have the chance to rob us even, the robber can escape despite having so many security guards, the CCTVS and so many people who can chase after them?" you mean security is so poor there, you let the robbers have their way. even if they steal, we wont chase after them and block their way? u mean they planned such a ingenious escape route or did they plant a spy or even had the ability to bribe someone in taka?

and so much so for potraying themselves as a high class shopping centre where security is rarely a concern of a customer. the thing is they just dont want us to queue and pack up early. fancy coming up with so many excuses and nonsensical stuffs, even running there is also an "offence" it's like unjustifiable.

perhaps we should all stop kpo-ing and ask others "hey how much you're paid per hr huh?" just hope we get a FAT FAT bonus for our hard work(:

(taken from may's blog)
this is some speaking disorder thing pearlyn started with. she changed all the L's to R's and R's to L's. eg. ROVE RETTERS (Love Letters), EDMUND(Almond),CASIO(cashew).

lennon came up with the 阿妈!...你...(AR-MA-NI=ARMANI)要不要试.

it's like some customers know its wrong and they want to laugh but they try not to because some people really speaks like that. the nicer ones will correct you and repeat that word again by using it in a sentence or something.

there's something that makes me wanna laugh everytime i think of it. so today we played with "come and take a rook alound, all these are handmade, our xxx cookies are very very famous and popular! die die must try! this is our best seller"

frankly speaking, nothing we said can be totally trusted. we can simply change our love letters to almond cookies to be the best seller and psycho people to try and buy. we can anyhow say we're rated number one by channel U and we receive orders before we started the cny event. in short, we can cook up any stories we want, ultimately it's up to discerning consumers to select the best in terms of quality and price.

a customer was like "hmm, your cookies are quite good, i may consider buying a few, do you have a price list or something?"

me: yes we do (after 3 secs).........., umm sorry, we ran out. SEE WE'RE SO POPULAR that we even ran out of the price lists."

the customer was like omg so BHB, can see that he wanted to burst out laughing, his face gave him away. whenver i think of it, i just wanna laugh man, you should have seen hat expression on his face. LOL! we thought this was classic and i thought of that on the spot, since we claim our cookies are so popular. so that additional sentence totally owned him, he was at a loss for words. like aiya just accept the fact that we're popular.

my heart was pumping damn fast yesterday when a lady (possibly a indo-chinese) passed me a $1000 note when she only bought $44. then the taka cashier had no change even and i had to go to the money changer. i cant imagine if i got robbed, that means all my pay is gone. the thing is that she didnt even check the no of $50 i passed her. it's like if there's one missing, she wouldnt even bother because she's just too rich.

2.5k tmr!!! let's all do it. 9 more days, im sure i'll miss the company i have for work.

2009-01-12T22:52:00.004+08:00

ended work very early today! at 945. usually at 1030 on weekdays and 11plus on weekends. hmm we talked alot today. i didnt know chongwei has a christian name that starts with B and mine starts with A. haha. me and may were like crazy about kbox haha. the 6 of us can go after work together(:

i feel fortunate to have met these friendly people. i so wanted to ask if i was friendly but decided to say "we" instead. haha. so yup pearlyn's response was yeah we're friendly.

aa and jeremy came to look for us. so we had dinner, together with yiling. that was very nice of them. my aunt came to support me also, though my job's not on comission based, she bought 2 boxes of cny goodies.

all the taka staff got scolded earlier for running in early, and closing the stalls before the bell rang. lol. i really ran in and got reprimanded by one of the manager or something.

2009-01-07T23:42:00.003+08:00

work was alright! setting up of the stalls was abit tiring because we had to take stocks and display the goodies.

good bosses, good environment, good company, new friends. hmmm. i hope tmr will be a good start.. hopefully i can endure!

saw my previous bosses, rachel and sin yee... they sort of remembered me. rachel called my name correctly and they weren't like "eh, why dont come and work for me" that kind of attitude. they even asked me to promote my stall well. like we're having fair competition and each of us has our own customer base.. hahaha nice and friendly people eh.

i like to use the cash register.(well dealing with money/using mental sums etc)

morning shift tmr! well its 2.94 a day to and fro. heartpain. wow today spent alot on travelling. from my house went toa payoh, then transferred 163 to thomson. after that went back to toa payoh central and took mrt to cityhall. then walked to bugis (to save some cents) and took train to orchard. and then from there took mrt back to serangoon. haha.

i think it's still not owning. travelled many more times within a day in the past without student fare too. like 8 dollars. LOL.

2009-01-06T23:22:00.003+08:00

hello. yup it's true that misunderstandings can lead to unhappiness and fights. but fortunately, the previous misunderstandings were cleared. what doesn't kills it makes it stronger. actually i was the root of the problem. now i feel good that things are solved.

perhaps i should say sorry. sorry JAYS, especially to wenyao and sam. i think saying sorry does help because i knew i was in the wrong, and it doesnt take much to say that. so yup. no point being obstinate and thinking that i was never wrong. i shouldnt decide how "wrong" i'm wrong either, i know i was just too emotional and sensitive.

met up with cheryl, aa, sam and jerm yesterday. had korean food that cost quite a bomb. and thanks for making the trip down to novena for my personal inconvenience. really appreciate that. feel much closer with them after the meal yesterday.

been chionging HK dramas the previous 2 weeks. tang xin feng ba zhi jia hao yue yuan's damn damn nice, i dont know if i've got the title correct. i'm really glued to the tv everyday. i sleep at 4 5 am and wake up at 1pm 2pm. then i just watch throughout the entire day. i eat my meals while watching also. so other than bathing, u'll just catch me sitting in front of the tv. like 14hours of watching everyday. im glad that im starting work because that's my life everyday, other than shopping and eating.

starting work tmr! yay. quite excited. i almost got a shock when i saw the schedule for my work. 17 days and 10 days im working 12 hours=full shift. hope i wont die. on a brighter note, that means i will earn close to 1k.

meeting the junliang and co tmr for brunch

oh yes HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETHLIMJUNLIANG!

wont be blogging so often cos it's just gonna be work work work. unless i've got interesting things to share!

MOOOODYYY

2009-01-01T19:14:00.007+08:00

new year's eve was spent with JAYS. watched australia at bishan. it was quite a nice show, but i think it doesnt interest everyone. aa didnt join us because she had singing performances at the marina barrage. she met us up later to watch fireworks it was so freaking crowded at esplanade.!! we were lucky because we were the last few to get in. the gate closed at 1130 and there were tens of thousands of people.

countdown-ed and watched the fireworks for like10mins before leaving. we walked all the way to clarke quay then took a train to little india and finally caught a cab in sight after 20mins. had bar chor mee for supper at 2am!

2008-12-30T22:50:00.003+08:00

went over to mr yang's house yesterday to see his baby. cute cute haha. well all babies are cute i suppose? after that, caught yes man with chong wei and lennon. we settled at ichiban sushi for dinner. i think i really need to exercise self control and curb my spending.

last monday went shopping with shereen and i spent 80 over. bought a plain white shirt from fcuk. was very tempted cos there was sales. still, it cost slightly over 40.

i wonder where i get the money to spend at times. and i figured it out. from my ATM, from my savings for many many years in my drawer, from spending my mom's money when my family goes out. so it amounts to alot of money which i may not see myself, other than the fixed amount of monthly pocket money i still receive now.

bought my working pants and went mattress+bedframe hunting.

meeting JAYS tmr and stayover. finallyyy. the long awaited meet up and new year lunch with extended family (dad's side) on new year.

actually i'm troubled because my grandma's living alone and there's alot of complex matters that no outsider would understand. i might pour some details, that is, if u have access to my livejournal.

2008-12-26T21:37:00.003+08:00

job interview was awesome!! i dont know why is it called interview most of the time when it's supposed to be a meet-up or interacting session. the dude who carried out the interview with us was very friendly and he was like younger than 30. he was an ex JC student. there's 3 other girls working with me and they looked friendly too. 2 from JJ and 1 one SR (?) like never see before. from s5. lol. chong wei will be joining me too. he's quitting hugo boss because the working hours are unearthly, like till 3am 4am, though i have to admit that the pay of 7 per hour is ALOT for retail.

quite excited about the job. it's like a entrepreneur kind of thing because he wont be there most of the time and it's us who are managing the entire event. the pay's not that good nor that bad. and its the standard rate la, 5 per hour, for every single "booth". plus we get paid for breaks too! so its like 5.50 actually. cos usually breaks are not inclusive for hourly pay for most temporary jobs.

the best part is we get a bonus scheme kind of thing. frankly speaking, though there's a daily quota to hit, speaking of location and our convincing power, im sure we will reach it through hard work and not sheer luck. anyhow i guess the economy has not affected the higher income much, i saw ppl buying AX, Guess, Burberry etc like there's no tmr. i strongly believe that we will be able to expect relatively high revenue. its not the heartland shopping malls, so yup.

the more we sell, at the end of the entire event, we'll get extra cash. im quite excited about it. will be working at taka square from 8-24jan. well at least 700 or 800, to self console. better than rotting and spending more and more money each time i go out. talked alot today, it's been awhile since i talked alot and kept nodding my head and smiling at the same time. because i had to explain i had some experience working for 07 CNY event. so the changing of money, where to get the cash and give at the end of the day, i know more or less.

and the lucky thing is we got selected cos we were jc students and we sent in our resume. so we were thought to be more proactive and having more intiative. and the reason why he chose those waiting for A level results was because of past experiecnces and past feedback from the taka ppl.

well i guess i have typed out most of the details of the interview. cant wait for new year's eve and for the job to start.

2008-12-26T02:51:00.003+08:00

back from butter factory. was very squeezy and un-high. it was a disappointment, we were all decked out to club. nevertheless, we danced abit and took photos. didnt drink much too, less than 2 cups. saw some SR ppl there. cabbed home.

2008-12-19T22:16:00.005+08:00

forever our superstar- ALICIA ANG(:

Let these pictures do the talking, very lazy to caption every single one of them. the house of condom was disgusting, sex toys and vibrators lol. anyway these are like only 1/3 of the photos, we took over 400 photos. will be hiatus till i return from grandma's house. I MISS JAYS, new year's eve stayover!! till then.

2008-12-18T23:01:00.004+08:00

genting trip was awesome!! i didnt get to shop much though, because most of the time, the girls were looking at their stuff. i cant believe exactly a month ago, we were still taking A levels. life's really really great now.

well i should start from last fri. went over to alvin's house, then met yhih huua after her work at tpy and we headed to WTS for dim sum, somewhere at sims drive. the food was quite good, but it wasnt that fantastically-diedie-must try. maybe i'm too particular about food and everything, very hard to please. LOL. only a few was 4/5 standard for me. i've been craving for real good durians, but it was quite expensive. only 4 seeds in one durian and it cost me $14. heart pain.

after that, headed back to alvin's house and aa came over. the 4 of us watched dvds in alvin's house. it was real comfy, lying in his sofa and mattress. damn it, i dozed off after one movie, the second one must be good cos i heard screamings. haha.

then sat was preparation for genting/kl trip. they came over at night and i continued some last minute packing.

genting trip- went over to haunted house and ripley's believe it or not. actually i was little scared too. but i went there before the previous trip. and we went clubbing!!!!!!!!!!! was really worried sick about sam and yhih huua cos they were away for 50mins just to get a new set of battery for the cam. i couldnt dance for so long la, i stoned alone for close to 1hour while they continued dancing. i think i danced for only 45mins. and we left at 3am. it was for the experience, initially no one dared to dance at the dance floor, only when the crowd started to get in did everyone else followed suit. a pity we didnt get to the theme park due to time constraint.

KL- the meals there werent exactly cheap, though we are 2.4 times richer. money's flying away like crazy, didnt buy anything much and we spent like 700-800RM on average for the entire trip. first meal at genting was 100RM, then first meal at KL was no less cheaper.

its really hard to get taxi drivers who go by METER and sometimes to risk having 5 passengers in their taxi. the one who slammed the door at yhih huua was somehow rude, but i think his reaction was quite reasonable, because he cant make a living if he were to accept our "conditions." anyway its pretty cool interacting with taxi drivers because we get to know more about KL, the culture, tourist attractions and also their perspective on various issues etc.

visited many places, mostly shopping centres, wanted to get over to the bridge of petronas twin towers but tickets were fully given away. aquaria was quite fun, it was something like underwater world, i could relish my childhood times.

hmm bargaining was another good experience, but it's not really bargaining also. it's like they deliberately mark up prices for tourists, hoping that any tourist will be stupid enough to fall prey for their trap. u must give damn the wah so expensive face and be firm about walking away if the price isnt mutually agreeable. those who dont mind going for small profit margains will usually approach you when you walk away, a few would be flaring their temper, blabbering on how low we wanted the prices to be, and had the "please fuck off if u cant afford" kind of look.

at chinatown, we went for foot reflexology and half body massage, 50mins in all for 40RM. the feeling was damn shiok haha, it was done by china women. also did facial on the last day at berjaya times sq while the girls did manicure and pedicure. dont really like facial because its PAIN PAIN PAIN. its really pain until can cry if u guys hadnt tried before, because i had worst
experiences in singapore before entering sr, at faceofmanskincare.

luckily, this time there wasnt any professional extraction, or to put it across bluntly, "squeezing". i know that sounded a bit ermmmm ywck. it's abit early to reach a conclusion, but i guess the facial at MURAD was effective because my skin is like peeling right now?

the hotel at berjaya times square was really 5-star standard for service and amenities. the staff at the check in counter and concierge were friendly and approachable, there was also someone pressing the lift for us, and when our card key didnt work( because we needed to insert in before we could use the lift), the bellboy will react fast enough to help us with the card they carried with them.
we were also given early check in and free upgrade to brooklyn suite (family suite) which had 2 rooms inside and a common living room and small kitchen. there's no problem accomodating 10 people. the breakfast there was not good at all, not worth 42RM.

and throughout the trip, met some people. saw zhuo ying with her family i think, who was on the same bus as me, and i didnt even notice. saw shawn kwek with his guy friends from nan chiau
while queueing up for breakfast at berjaya times square. and on the return trip, saw a few other sr peeps with other peeps (which i dont know, but i know they're from sr) maybe sec sch friends or first 3 months class? its really such a small world. maybe malaysia's the cheapest to go on tour with friends and KL and genting are the more popular places and A's ended like only one month ago. but same place same time really abit too much of a coincidence. haha

wow, this's such a disorganised post. pictures will be up not so soon, including unglam ones. i miss the hotel!!

2008-12-18T14:58:00.002+08:00

Sun, Nov 23, 2008The Straits Times

YOU expect to see big animals restricted to movement within their enclosures in the zoo.But when Mr Tan Juan Yew and his family visited the Singapore Zoo two weeks ago, they were startled to see an elephant running freely on a pedestrian path.
'About four or five zookeepers were running behind it. There was some commotion as people tried to get out of the way,' the 33-year-old told The Sunday Times.

so this was true, i really didnt knew it until the taxi driver in malaysia told us. haha damn funny. he commented that singapore's zoo very luan. cos zookeeper got killed by white tiger and elephant run away. LOL. it's like we failed as singaporeans la, anyway i seldom keep up with current affairs one. he said it was headlines somemore.

2008-12-10T22:18:00.002+08:00

exhausted.

went swimming yesterday at serangoon complex with xf and jinbin. swam quite alot. like 15laps. after that headed for dinner at serangoon central. that was yesterday.

today went to tampinese CPF building to fill up some job application form with chong wei, and the company so happened to be recruit express. i remembered there were 2 people giving out flyers on the last day of our papers, i took it thinking that i would need it some day. never would i have thought that the one chong wei recommended (which he read in classifieds) turn out to be the same company.

we met xf cos he intended to get his PS3 today. but somehow after some questioning and haggling, there was no stock for 40GB. lol. we thought that it was some gimmick to persuade him into buying 80GB. it seems that the supply of 40GB ceased quite long ago, if im not wrong. so we werent exactly pleased with the service rendered, probably he'll wait till the next SITEX fair in march i guess.

had subway at 6, and that was my first meal of the day, other than one cup of watermelon juice from sweetalk, which i really needed to quench my thirst. lol. had subway and we walked around anchor point since we made such a long trip down. and the journey back was worst, took 51 to hougang interchange and it took 1h30mins. parents decided to fetch me from there since it was such a long ride, and i felt giddy and nauseating. that was really the longest bus ride i ever took.

2008-12-08T23:53:00.003+08:00

hmm today was a very-nua day. quite pissed that my mum woke me up at 11 for no apparent reason. okay maybe to eat brunch. she should have known that i'm not an early person and that i dont eat breakfast larrrr. couldnt get back to sleep despite being tired. i enjoy being nocturnal(:

me and yhih huua is really too crazy about genting/KL trip. super kua zhang, we or rather she drawed up an extremely detailed itineary. most of the credit goes to her.

"Malaysia trip is only SEVEN Days away! Bet you're all excited in the midst of busy projects and school(samantha and alicia) and not forgetting,extreme boredom(hanrong).To make this trip more fruitful and more exciting. I've came up with an itenary for our schedule. There are various options to Day 3(pls refer to itenary). You can choose to go Sightseeing/ Shopping. Of course, sightseeing will be a cheaper alternative to shopping trips. Personally, i prefer the Sightseeing ones. I've included the other Places of Interest in KL, so if you all wanna go, please feel free okay. (:So as to make your packing-for-your-luggage process more organized, i've also came up with a packing list. Anyway, we MAY go clubbing if time permits. So do bring along one set of clubbing clothes. Oh yes, the initial initial plan was to go for spa, but i've checked out the spa rates, its pretty EXPENSIVE. So we'll just stick to something more cheapo-foot reflexology k!"

HAHAHAHAHA omgggg. we can set up a tour agency/or some agency to plan events. we totally rock, our comparative advantage. (i'm getting a little bit carried away here haha) LOL. after so much pushing from yhih huua, the super lazy me finally went to search for the places of interest, and the places we have to cover is really alot. finalised everything, and printed them out. mum thinks we're mad, the experience she had with me at HK was bad enough. imagine chiong-ing factory outlets like for some mad money savers contest. and its not easy to locate them like shopping centres lol. yeah, mum is coming with us cos she think it's dangerous for the 4 of us. anyhow, im sure it wont be weird or anything cos my mum know u all quite well already!

so yhih huua came to tuition my sis in the afternoon, specialising in english and chinese, haha i suck at it, maths and sciences still mian qiang hai ke yi. after that, my mum asked me to make myself useful by preparing a meal. the carrots and mushrooms i cut was so thiccckk goodness.of course, it failed and my mum ended up whipping the dishes. we contributed a little, the chicken wings was our jie zhuo (: aa came over after meeting up with tommy(who is entering army tmr) cos she was bored. went mad about KL with the both of them, watched tv and my parents sent them home. cant wait for stayover at alvin's and KL. its gonna be a week of fun. after that, i will be heading to my grandma house to stay for a rather long period of time. so i'm looking for a job that starts in jan. pleasse recommend any!

2008-12-06T21:15:00.017+08:00

finally got my sports shoes!!!!

lol i bought this shoes from queensway today. thank you alvin and yhih huua for accompanying me despite being tired! i so wanted to bargain but they say only one price-take or leave. i should have just left and see how they would react. maybe i was kind of impatient and i gave myself away- i really wanted to buy. lol. paid $125 for this pair of shoes. cos there's this what gel technology that only asics uses, which will prevent users from injuring their legs. they just convinced me that it will be good for running in the long run compared to other brands, because we'll be less prone to injuries. actually i dont mind getting adizero cos it's very very light as well. anyway it should be quite a good steal since it's asics. i did some research and found this picture. i really cant make out the words, its from taiwan i think, but those words look like japanese to me.

after that, they left at 3plus and i went to meet my mum for some quick shopping? bought a pair of levis jeans cos there's this $50 off when u trade in old jeans promotion. plus i really lost inches, so i needed jeans for CNY. we tried to shop for christmas gifts but it was so squeezy at taka, so probably we'll get them from malaysia. haha.

yesterday went to celebrate yiling's birthday with sarah,mimi,aa,jere and ger. jere and aa had to rush projects and i thought their late was at most an hour or so kind of late. in the end despite being late myself, i waited for another 2 hours plus. and when i tapped my card out at dhoby ghaut- it reads "OVERSTAY" then i explained to the staff that i was waiting at changi airport for like 45mins plus in the platform, so i didnt tap my card until 2hours plus later. we were supposed to meet there and i came from cityhall, in the end sarah,mimi,yl came and we had to go back to cityhall and to ps. the staff wanted to deduct $2 from my card, but because she said i was aware of it, she didnt this time round.

had ASTONS at the cathay for late lunch and early dinner. we started eating about 5plus. hmmm i think ASTONS's much better than BOTAK JONES for me. prices also more reasonable.
after that, sat somewhere outside the isetan supermarket, the one at shaw house, to CAMWHORE. LOL. mimi was the CHAMPION. haha. she did all sorts of poses. well me and jere only took group photos with them. girls are FOREVER girls.

didnt go back to SR to collect the $5, not because the $5 is insignificant to me. though SR's not a stone's throw away from my house, like chongwei's, it's still considerably near for me. $5 can take cab okay. lol. it's just cos i hate stepping into SR once again. really bad memories for me to the max. i've made up my mind, worst come to worst, go SIM. never into SR (though the teachers are really what warms my heart, inspiring me how teachers should really be). im not defaming the sch or anything, apologies to those who really feel for the sch, cos i dont, for some other reasons.

2008-12-05T11:35:00.003+08:00

someone's in love with crabtree-evelynn's biscuits!

kbox with chongwei yesterday was great, i could sing much much better compared to when i went with xf and the others. despite having a mike each, we still couldnt sing finish all the songs, or rather i couldnt. LOL. i think practising at home does help. haha watching youtube videos or DVDs and singing to myself when nobody's around.

heading to airport soon, to celebrate yiling's bday with jere and co. this time sarah and mimi will be joining us too! it's time for good food once again. going super broke at this rate. it's like even if u eat foodcourt, u'll still spend 20 or 30 if u go out. what's more eating more expensive food. i need to find a short-term job soon, which starts in jan, any lobangs please recommend lol!!

2008-12-03T23:40:00.003+08:00

just came back from town. saw many kids playing snow at tanglin. they are so adorable and innocent. had macs for dinner today and yesterday, omg fattening. yesterday was with aa at SR central. met jerm and gerlynn just now, cos they were supposed to take pictures of snow? in the end, gerlynn's friend,eunice and cheryl were also there. haha first impression- friendly and nice people. i think it's quite cool to meet your close friend's close friends. it's not that awkard afterall cos at least we exchanged sentences, but for one thing, they're really very english speaking. and i dont think i can get used to it if people around me were to be so english speaking. feels abit weird suddenly. HAHA. now i know why jeremy could make friends with them in pri sch:)

gonna hit the gym with junliang and co tmr to WORK OUT. hope i can wake up tmr, if i cant, then i'll just miss it. lolll and i was like 1hour plus late just now, sorry to keep u guys waiting!(haha i'll wait if anyone were late too!) to speak the truth, i was rushing macs just now, cos i quite guilty haha.

BYE!

2008-12-03T11:29:00.004+08:00

been staying home these 2 days, and yet it felt that i've been staying home for a week or something. finished the channel U's 10pm show-forensic heroes. there is a total of 25 episodes and the last few quite interesting.. mum and sis's at work, dad overseas. so yes im bored, cooping at home isnt good for the body and soul. i wanna stop thinking about stuffs, and just enjoy my holiday. so far it has been quite good, but everybody's busy either with driving lessons, sch, or meeting up with their jc class.

at least i got plans later in the evening and for tmr and fri. so it shouldnt be that BAD i guess, i needa get sport shoes and xmas gifts and think about what to do for christmas.. hmmm.. i need to run!!

2008-12-02T12:36:00.017+08:00

BIRTHDAY PHOTOS! please feel free to grab them:) there's still a few which has not been sent to met yet though..

2008-12-01T12:17:00.004+08:00

headed to tpy at 11am with my sis to meet alvin and yhih huua. our purpose was to help my sis buy assessement books! in the end we bought like 5. after that had brunch at koufu. the standard of the desserts stall really dropped. we had our half bowl filled of dessert left there. then we celebrated alvin's bday, bought him a mini cake from breadtalk!

and before i almost forgot, thanks JAYS for the small durian cake from emicakes! at least i had a cake on the first night of the chalet (my actualy birthday).

my sis didnt believe that it was alvin's bday, because what comes out of his mouth tends to be largely false, cause he's always joking.

so it cant be helped that my sis chose not to believe you. hahaha. after that we all went kiddy palace to kill time, alvin keep saying that we're young at heart. omg. that really reminds me of Mrs Yeo, cos she always said that! she was my upper sec sch tutor, and one of my best fav maths teacher.

we went our separate ways cos my sis went to meet her friend and alvin had to attend his class chalet. me and yhih huua went to the expo for the IT fair/john little sale. we shopped for 2hours plus 3, cos the queueing to pay was already 45mins.

yhih huua(talks to a stranger): eh which handbag do you think looks nicer on me?
stranger: stares weridly at her and walks away, as though she just came out from IMH

hahaha i thought it was abit funny also, cos not everyone is as friendly or as daring, so some ppl couldnt accept this kind of stuff.

we did something very bad yesterday..

then it was followed by a very bad dream today. although i dont take lit, but i dreamt that i almost missed lit paper 2 (?)

i was late for 20mins, i knew i would be late cos i couldnt find my entry proof! i didnt even know it was paper 1 or 2. in my dreams, i took h1 lit. but i dont know the reality whether how's the format for h1 lit was like. somemore i asked someone what p2 tested us on, then someone replied 2 long unseen poems. probably it was cause we took lit in lower sec.

my family were searching high and low in my room for it but to no avail. after that, no choice, i cabbed down to sch and decided to ask for the clerk to print for me. the process of panicking and searching frantically for my entry proof was very very bad. i didnt even brought a pen with me. so i went to buy one from the bookshop. the uncle wasnt uncle henry, haha, the bookshop was situated on the 2nd floor, quite near the staircase. i was very pissed off, cos he give change damn slow. had i known, i should just ran off first. i ran as fast as my legs could carry me to the hall, and everyone stared at me for a sec before continuing with their writing.

omg this dream i had was damn damn extreme, i always have these kind of dreams.

MY SUPERB 18!!!

2008-11-29T21:22:00.031+08:00

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR BEING PART OF MY BIRTHDAY PARTY AND MAKING IT A SUCCESS!!

thanks for all the birthday wishes, the lovely presents, and for trying to make it despite being busy.

im finally 18 and legal now! this years' birthday celebration was a combined one, with everyone, my family, jays, 2s17 and some others! it was unlike last year where i had mini celebrations with 3 cakes. of course, this was planned by me even before A's.

and i received the most presents this year! thats not the point though. the 2 most special presents was given to me by JAYS and the 2s17 guys. it was very thoughtful of them for the 7underwears/boxers and also the jigsaw puzzle framed up and nicely pieced together. the jigsaw puzzle was the most meaningful cos it had to be pieced one by one, and it was chosen because i was the class treasurer!! how cool! i will keep that and remember even 10 years down the road. u guys made the right choice, hahaha.

the other presents were awesome too! i bet many of you had to rack your brains hard enough to decide what to get for me. its the thought that counts and i can feel the sincerity from you guys. really. your presence mattered more that you presents;) they are but mere possessions.

initially i thought it wouldnt be successful because some couldnt stay and countless other reason. nevertheless it was very successful!

a big thanks to

my family and my MUM: for her effort in preparing everything, from marinating the food, to collecting the cake and all.

JAYS: for coming on both days despite having to go to sch and rush your projects.

bryan chongwei, jinbin, lin qiang, lennon, xue feng: for shouting out and unwinding with me at wild wild wet

junliang and LQ once again: for free labour, starting the fire and bbq-ing practically throughout.

sheena,shuanghui,huey xhin, shereen and hin hiang: for attending the bbq together and i felt bad cos hh had to miss her class gathering, i could also sense that u all felt weird.

alicia lee:for being so sociable with everyone and staying for both nights

AA: for buying those last minute food, when in fact, there were leftovers and more than enough. i owe u a treat for that $36! claim from me next time=D

Wenyao: for being the cameraman!!

Hsun hao: for having such a glib tongue and livening things up and making my grandma happy!

Yhih huua: for playing with my niece, the black long sleeved shirt and free labour!

and to joyce,gerlynn, yiling, hwee yee,alvin,eileen, kuo hua, nikhil, lishi, nicholas, eddie, marcus, tommie for being there together with me for the bbq and birthday celebration.

i dont think i left anybody out..

to mention again, thank you jinbin, lennon and chongwei for going bowling with me despite being very tired. i saw lennon and jinbin fell asleep, as much as i wanted to play another game, i didnt want to cos i couldnt bear to. (i was also tired and wearing the SR bowling shirt made things worst cos i haven been practicing and score's like less than 150at most)

haha, wild wild wet wasnt that scary for me, im glad i bought a photo as a memento. it was a bit of a pity that the 7 of us couldnt took ular-lah together and snap a group photo!
slide up was the most thrilling ride compared to the others. and it was really funny seeing all of them screaming their lungs out. its like a big group of guys screaming for no apparent reason when girls aged 4 or 5 can take those rides without any fear. alot of people were laughing.

daytona, basketball were the ultimate too! now i know why my hands are aching now already. LOL...

i finally learned how to play bridge, with the help of lennon and alicia lee!!
we were really dam high, a pity junliang wasnt there. HAHAHA. and stress was the best part, cos me and alicia lee kept teaming up to make lennon lose. bullied like siao.! i think those who stayed on the first night couldnt sleep that, well sorry about that! heh:)

i think most of you guys still get along pretty well! im happy seeing u guys interacting with one another and enjoying yourselves!

if chance permits, you guys will meet again! i will organise my 21st haha, though it seems super early but i guess i'll just mention it. and i will earn my own money for that, mark my words.
dont wanna bother my parents anymore. the whole thing cost like $800++ and thats alot of money for me.

and one last thing, you guys will always be the friendliest people to me cos you're my friend.

my family and friends are the best godsent's gift to me, i love you all!! sorry if anyone felt left out cos i had to attend to different people and there's only one han rong! hahahahaha.

pictures are not yet with me, i'll send to u guys once i receive them cos its not taken with my camera. just be patient ok!!

2008-11-26T00:33:00.002+08:00

hello went running with aa earlier on. we ran a total of 9 rounds and i felt good after that. the last time i ran was when i went to xf's to mug and that was before A's. then sat down for bar chor mee before heading for tau huey. homed 9plus. haha we were quite tickled by the fact that the lady working at the NB tau huey is an indian. not discriminating or anything, but we felt it was abit unsuitable? lol.

stayed home today, didnt do anything much. i've still yet to pack my room. oh gosh. hmm wondering what im gonna do to keep myself occupied tmr in the afternoon. dinner with parents and sis (if my sis can make it, cos she has work), then k-garden after that for my bday celebration.

2008-11-24T22:15:00.002+08:00

swam with jb,xf and cw. didnt swim much cos we had to teach xf how to swim. haha. was very hungry after that cos all i had was a pretzel from auntie anne's the entire day. and i saw hui wen at cityhall just now with her mom, then i was quite shocked when i saw her. couldnt react fast enough and all i did was wave and smiled back.

wanted to eat at chomps but unfortunately it was close today, probably for some washing of the stalls. so we settled down at the market lor, no choice, budget. hahaha. and i made a BIG discovery today, maybe the machine was faulty or what, i lost weight! was 71+ 72. the last time i took was like 74+ 75. quite happy. HAHAHA. jogging with aa tmr if she's free!

2008-11-24T01:16:00.009+08:00

went to had my hair cut and did some scalp treatment (which they say would decelerate white hair growth, thats why they claimed la.) at msia. i took this photo cos i think the person style for me quite nice. LOL. those guys working at salon very metro one, fashion sense damn good. yhih huua wanted to dye that brown the guy had, i think quite nice also. but when the hair grows, the black would be very obvious. so LR no good. hahaha. cost about 50sing. yhih huua went to dye and cut her hair as well, also around 50sing. considerably cheap partially because my mum good at bargaining. i finished in like 50mins so i fell asleep while waiting for her.

my parents brought us there. i cant believe the 2 of us taking 170 there and walking back if we went ourselves, which we almost did. pathetic man. somemore we would be super exhausted by midnight. they went to do their things while we did our hair. didnt buy anything much, except for a shirt and shorts. yhih huua bought more stuff. erm we went city square and jusco. intially we thought we had high purchasing power, it all turned out that we didnt had much money left.

but some of the stuff are really at least cheaper, other than BOSSINI. i had chicken as my main course for 3 of my meals, except for dinner had some seafood. sleeping in the car is really shiok, goodness the feeling of being tired is very good because you can sleep for as long as you want. no worries about homework or getting home early. nothing.

and what happened yesterday was trivial, wenyao. i was just passing a casual remark, i didnt expect you to go scold him la. anyway private post also, i quite shocked that you left me offline msg! gonna go swimming tmr with cw etc and i needa get new (mid square) trunks.

2008-11-22T22:23:00.006+08:00

so we went down to support aa today. wanted to eat rosti but the village at heeren had closed down. ended up eating thai express.. i guess aa did her best today, i think sometimes its not the winning that matters, but seeing the support close friends and family members give. at least u know there are people who care for you, winning is but another bonus. so being nice friends, we had to vote for aa by buying teenage magazine, even though i already had a copy of that, i still bought. no choice what, who ask her to be our close friend.

met aa's bf and her other 2 good friends, had dinner with them. me, alv and yh left after that ard 8plus cos we were damn tired. and day trip to m'sia tmr.

2008-11-21T16:27:00.004+08:00

so went to kbox yesterdy with xuefeng,shereen and hin hiang. haha hh was the only one who was high, the 3 of us were like singing slow songs. so much for laughing at me xf! u didnt sound any better lah. hahaha. throat yesterday wasnt good, i felt it was dry and uncomfortable. now, im feeling worst..

we thought we were given extension till 330, but they were unreasonable and they shut the system off at 310. after that went to walk around for abit before hh went to a job interview with her friend. first time going out with the three of them, and it was a different experience altogether. at least i felt that i was myself when i was with them.

today was spent rotting at home. im still having a headache, woke up automatically at 10 and i cant get back to sleep. i started a few pages on nineteen mintues, at least i did and i will finish it in a few weeks. haha.. i've yet to pack my room, watch madagascar 2 which xf has burned for me.

in the past i could use A levels as an excuse for not doing household chores, but now i haven started even packing my own room. actually taking A's wasnt any big deal, i dont know why it seemed such a big deal in the past. like taking A's means that u are the king in the family, that ppl not taking are much free-er than you. i was wrong, okay poor sam for having 8 projects to complete (not in a sarcastic manner) and i cant believe that jeremy didnt sleep a wink just to complete his work.

we're finally meeting up tmr! i miss eating with jays cos we always eat nice/special food together and it feels very homely. we can try one another's food without being awkward and dont need to wait for them to start eating. ( like what sam said before "we're so close already, no need to wait") actually sometimes at home i dont really care also, i'm like always the first to eat. lol.

only in sch then we practice such social etiquettes, cos it would seem impolite to eat in a big group. like u cant start to eat like a greedy pig. (although the diffcult part is that when im hungry, i have to act like im patient and that im not.) hahahaha

2008-11-20T18:06:00.002+08:00

finally home. my poor legs, im exhausted. shall update later. im having dark circles due to lack of sleep. went out at 940am.

2008-11-19T21:41:00.004+08:00

so met yhih huua today, we were supposed to try out bakerz inn's cake cos i wanted to get that for my birthday. although i must admit that their cakes are very pretty and appealing, they are not up to par in terms of standard. its not worth paying like 100 for the average brand cake, i'd rather get something better in terms of taste, though it shouldnt cost any much cheaper either. yhih huua kept telling me to save money on cake (by ordering from cake history), and invest more on bbq. nevertheless, i still want a nice cake. HAHAHA.

we had brunch at seah im food centre.. the food was quite good and cheap. after that, we texted xf to watch movie with us, since he asked me out to swim and i couldnt. 3 of us watched dragon hunters. i dont know why recently i've been watching movies with weird titles, that me myself dont know the synopsis at all. and worst, sometimes i blur blur go in and come out not understanding the movie. but this cartoon animation story was alright, i want to watch madagascar!!

oh yea and i saw aderyl (jeremy's close p sch friend) the awkard thing is that i wore the same t-shirt as what i wore to park mall's fish and co. the red fcuk shirt with birds in front. LOL. the bottom was different i think.

didnt buy anything today, i wanted to get socks, but it came in 5 and it was like $40. i should save as much money as i can, since we're bound to spend more for food and entertainment. initially i thought i would get something from ESPRIT, since it's my birthday month and i get 20% off storewide, but nothing caught my attention.

2008-11-19T09:38:00.004+08:00

chongwei: says:
u wake up early do math?
han rong says:
NO
chongwei: says:
i got reason also
chongwei: says:
i going exercise

haha chong wei is funny or rather seriously out of his mind. why would anyone touch anything related to studying after A's. yes i woke up early today (that's so unlike me), and my whole boy's aching all over. but nvm, its time to get tired and all, after all, its the long awaited break! *YAWNS*

2008-11-18T22:02:00.002+08:00

i felt damn noob.. haha. seriously doubt i will go for soccer again. so i was the goalkeeper today, and i think i did a bad job. like damn sian can, they must be thinking: "this stupid goalie so easy. can score from full court also."

sometimes things doesnt have to be explicit, you can feel it.

i was really damn stressed just now, playing with bryan's friends and our class. it's like u know somewhat your ability is limited, yet u hope u can just do your best..

it's not because im anti-social or what that i dont wanna go. its seriously i cant play and i feel horrible.

but i dont think it's unfair to go a few times la, since sometimes i "force" them to do things they dont like also, like bowling.. i dont want to not go and cause the rest not to go and make myself a spoilsport.

and the comment that"A levels are over already la" is very sensitive, its not as though its my mum which forbids me from going out or what. but nvm la, they dont know me anyway.

im dead beat now, going retail therapy tmr:) and dinner at grandma's. thurs going kbox. fri rest. sat gonna support aa at teenage icon. sunday msia. mon might be going swimming. tues rest or grocery shopping for bbq. weds bday dinner with family. thurs/fri chalet. thats all for now.

2008-11-18T09:57:00.003+08:00

YES A's are officially over! finally this day is here, but somehow it feesl weird also cos suddenly damn free, there's nothing much to do. anyhow, freedom is here!!

today's physics mcq made it a good ending:)

2008-11-17T16:48:00.002+08:00

had green tea frap yesterday! i was craving for it and so i just took a train down and bought home. parents and sis left for day shopping at msia, and so i was alone after physics tuition. actually its pretty peaceful being alone.. lol...

cant wait for saturday cos i'll be seeing JAYS after so long. and time for good food or a movie!

i cant stop thinking that i'll be more of a hindrance than a help tmr, i hate this feeling. i hope nothing weird happens tmr or i'll be made a mockery. im not cut for sports. ok stop thinking stop thinking about it!

2008-11-15T21:36:00.002+08:00

i dont like eating pigs trotters in vinegar and ginger. it's so sour and i just dont like the taste. but i still ate some cos theres meat. lol. i dont know why my grandma likes to cook that, though not very often, like twice a year.

me:eeyer so sour one, i dont know.
grandma: mai hao dai (dont stupid leh in hokkien). eat this one very nourishing one. thats why women in confinement must eat alot of this and blah blah blah.

now i know why modern women dont like, especially if their family quite traditional one. and its terrible cos my ah ma keep commenting about my cousin-in-laws. wah still can sleep aircon/eat magi mee ah. very daring hor. the older generation always have lots of rules and restrictions to abide by (of course some may argue that thats not scientifically proven etc, nevertheless, its what the older generation think) but i doubt people care much these days.

didnt touch any physics at all today. i think tmr then start cos last session of phyiscs tuition. must kiasu abit, cos i know whether my physics pass or not depends ultimately on that. i shall search online for my birthday cake. oh yes if u're coming plesase dont bring birthday cake(sorry for being thick-skinned).

haha i remembered last year my birthday was bbq at aa's house, i wanted that. and then this year its planned by me again, so far i haven had any surprises from JAYS before! im doing you guys a favour by not adding on to your workload. next year next year=)

okay if you guys suddenly think i very random or lame, its all thanks to chongwei and co. i know i wasnt like this in sec sch. haha. its very very worse when im with them.

2008-11-14T22:00:00.002+08:00

IM BACK from the foodfair with my parents. chem today was okay for me. seriously there's a cyclical pattern. it's always alternate good and bad days. so following this trend, physics on tues should be bad for me? whatever, hope not. after the paper, went marina sq with junliang,chongwei, and jinbin. i didnt want to go home, so we went bowling. the feeling is really great, but i've like lost touch with bowling already. score today was 110+, played 2 games. i need to find my strike line!!

the foodfair was nothing interesting for me, it seems that they're having it 2 times a year at the expo and occasionally at suntec. it's always the same old things and the price is the same. its so far and parking is a hassle. i dont think i will want to go there anymore.

it was pretty fun with them today, just a simple 3 or 4 hours spent with them. nothing much in particular, except shooting each other with our mouths, and what else. i really envy those ppl who can fill 2 rows of movie seats with their class or at sakae/seoul garden etc. it seems that they're really close and united.

cant wait for tues!! (actually i see no difference between now and tues)

2008-11-13T20:42:00.003+08:00

it seems that JAYS is freaking busy. we haven met for the longest time. aa's busy with her new love, schwork and teenage icon. sam and jerm are also so busy with projects and all. and i dont know about yao, but bet the same applies to her. so sad. A's are ending and i have like very little things to do.

currently i only have programmes on 18,20,22 and 26-28nov. plus 14-17dec (kl/genting) there's still a few which has yet to be confirmed. but i feel damn free.
i wanna go bowling,kbox,fishing,prawning, swimming, jogging,shopping,buffet. and stayovers.

so BORRRINGG.

whats the point of all this

2008-11-12T20:48:00.008+08:00

i tried, but it failed. i had my worst paper today.

today, its just not mere time management alone. and enough of using a lack of time as an excuse, im sick of it myself when i tell my parents that. it's really bad this time round.

STILL, i went to enjoy myself though i didnt think i did. haha. no mood to study anyway. caught quantum of solace with junliang,chong wei and lennon at the cathay. it was good, just that i didnt understand the storyline (again?) saw lots of jc kids too. bet everyone's like celebrating. as each day passes by, we're one day drawing closer to the end of A's. so thats worth celebrating i guess? it's painful to live in the past, i can only self console myself to hope for the future:)

2008-11-11T19:11:00.002+08:00

today was a okay day. okay in the sense that i finally completed a full paper, and thats chem paper 2. as for the rest of the papers, i've never completed a single one before. for econs, it was less okay, but it wasnt that bad cos i did 2 macro. my micro was kinda screwed, anyway i left micro till the last 25mins, so i wont do well for micro . but that aside, econs was okay.

3 more papers left only!!!! thats damn fast. hope tmr will turn out fine. haha yes yes cant wait for kbox, i dont mind going kbox for 5-10times! go till i get sick of it, cos thats what i've been looking forward to everyday. of course i need to have companyyy.

cant wait for 27/28nov and genting/kl trip!

2008-11-09T21:22:00.004+08:00

A's hasnt been good for me.. anyway what's done cannot be undone.

so alvin and huua finally came over today! it's been like 2weeks plus since they did, kinda miss their presence and studying with them. i will never forget that they've been the ones studying with me for A's! my house has become more lively with them around, i think its super crazy cos the max they came was like 4 days in a week. lol. so i see them like almost every other day.

super super post A's, so much activities to look forward to.

anyhow shall go read the notes and tys for now~!

2008-11-04T22:52:00.004+08:00

i didnt know we had to write name for A levels, cos i remembered during O's, we had to paste stickers which had our index on it. i didnt knew it existed until i heard, "candidates please write your name and index number" HAHAHA, i found this quite stupid. like people will laugh at you. or i did remember wrongly?

anyway 3 papers down, and A's gonna be over in a blink of an eye. maths today was more consoling, in the sense that it was way better than GP. heard many people grumbling after maths, well shant comment lest tongues will wag.

weeee, 2 more weeks! im satiated after the buffet, lol. it sounds so post-As but yup i just came back from ala carte buffet with my parents.

hang on everybody:))

2008-11-01T21:30:00.003+08:00

aa came over today. supposedly our intention was to study. A's like freaking coming. but didnt manage to do much,except for some reading up on stats and GP. i caught a 20-30mins nap while she did her work. was too tired already, really. i begin to question myself how prepared am i for A's and i cant seem to find an answer. it's like our efforts have been collective over 1.5years, but its an irony that im not making good use of the time i have left, despite what has to be done has been done already.

yesterday was productive. went to sch around 3plus to do some physics, and had physics consultation with xf and jinbin. managed to complete more than half the paper, after which i went over to xf's. we finished up the physics paper and started on maths paper 2. we did half the paper and by then it was like 12am.

and when i told my mom that my room's finally gonna be neat in 3 weeks (without those pile of notes and lecture books lying around everywhere). her response was "ya, but i wont throw them away till u collect results next year"

the sense of anxiety isnt there, but im just feeling worried.

hang in there everybody!!

something random: i drank SE7EN bottles of YAKULT in 3days. HAHAHA.

i didnt know it meant so much to me.

2008-10-30T22:55:00.002+08:00

i needed just that and it came at the appropriate time.

thanks for those who cared.
and to my parents who treat me like a prince.
and to one tutor who boosted my morale by leaps and bounds.

im motivated to try my best.

i want to feel this way

2008-10-28T22:15:00.007+08:00

finally went to sch today at 435! and i felt productive! had econs consultation with mrs sim. then i was late for 5mins, and she thanked me for coming down after the session (?) dont know why also. she must've thought that it was a last minute thing cos consultation was tmr and she brought it forward to today. haha i shouldnt think so much. mrs sim reminds me of my maths tutor when i was in sec sch, everyday when there was tuition i would look forward to it cos i enjoy those sessions and it makes me damn happy. i still remembered the first econs tutorial, more than half the class was away for OGL/games ic. then there were only about 8 of us, and she was so damn scary.

who didnt read up on market failure notes? go back and stand!!

i can still remember that scene la. it's vividly etched in my mind.

i also remembered writing 3 times of a paragraph of effort element- the one on SOL cos we couldnt answer that in tutorial. plus she asked us (me,cw and bryan) to explain to her what it was in the hall immediately after collecting to ensure we didnt plainly copy without understanding. there was once when i didnt do case study, and when i handed in 10mintues late, she was super angry. SHE THOUGHT I WENT FOR LUNCH AND I DIDNT EVEN TAKE A QUICK BITE. i wrote very slowly cos i had to think for awhile, when my brain gets jam, i cant continue la. i dont like to do things that i dont understand can. for that time i was damn angry and i think i did blogged about that. of course, i no longer feel angry now.

it was diffcult intially to adapt to a different teaching style, but perhaps as time went by and when i grew fonder of the subject, she became nicer. and yes, i cannot dismiss the fact that she did try to change herself by controlling her temper. that was after some QTS survey i presume. she became nicer, very much nicer.

after econs, did 3/4 of maths paper 1 (2 stars). the first 7 questions was pretty manageable, and i could finish without much diffculty. but the last 5 questions became gradually tougher. when my productivity went low, i couldnt take it and my parents came to fetch me home. gonna go sch tmr again for maths consultation with xf. the mood is somehow back and i wonder how long it'll last. hmmmm.

jogging yesterday with aa and my sis made my body feel good. i wonder if it's in the mind, i felt "healthier". LOL. my sis couldnt take it la, i thought that that was a comfortable pace. and xf was taken aback when he asked me when was the last time i ran and i said yesterday. HAHAHA.

im happy today cos i felt productive. it's been eons since i last felt or said that i was productive. it feels good. this week's packed with consultations and tuitions, i hope this week will soon breeze through.

2008-10-27T19:31:00.002+08:00

im so damn tired, always tired. no moood sigh. homed 3am yesterday, watched 20th century boys with family. it feels like holiday, i want to give up. it feels so draggy and torturing.

PLAIN LAZY=(

ADEQUATE OR NOT?

2008-10-23T00:15:00.003+08:00

suddenly it seems that so much needs to be done.

completing a simple econs essay can leave me feeling satisfied.

time is passing by so slowly, yet quickly.

i want to enjoy these 2 weeks of studying.

chomps on fri=D

LOL.

graduation day

2008-10-17T17:24:00.005+08:00

we've finally graduated!:)

AND I HAVE OFFICIALLY CLEARED THE CLASS'S DEBTS WITH UNCLE HENRY. I NO LONGER NEED TO PAY HIM ANYMORE. YAY!!!!

i know for sure i'll miss college life, just like how i used to miss beatty when i was in SR. some say that its hard to make true friends in college, about how competitive it is and everything, i agree to some extent, but i've forged friendships with a few of my classmates. they're definitely the closest to me in sch. throughout this 2 years, though we seldom go out on sch days, other than hols or after exams, we've spent alot of time together, the guys will always sit and eat together during breaks and lunch. we're quite "sticky".

i dont know if we're still gonna keep in contact after next year, but i know the friendship will gradually fade away once we dont talk to one another. we'll appear like strangers and feel awkard after a long period of time. it takes effort and time to bond and to maintain the friendship.

just caught "MAX PAYNE" with all of them, the 8 of us. i enjoyed the show, though i was quite confused about what was going on. and i felt a little scared during the movie, yes scared, i dont know why. perhaps it was the effects and graphics. On the contrary, i didnt felt scared while watching 4bia or ju-on. okay this is weird.

its time to get back to reality and start mugging, i've really not been mugging much this month (yes and i know myself), this 2 weeks is really crucial to me. its like i know i know most of the concepts and stuff (those things that i remember have been remebered since j1 or when i was taught), but its all been jumbled up. i need to revise and piece everything back together. and if i keep thinking that i know my stuff, i KNOW I WILL do badly for A levels. like what my chem tutor told me, those questions u know u can do, those u dont know u really cant do. i should give my best cause i wont get to mug this much in the future anymore, i just want to do it once and for all.

anyway yesterday was super funny.
inside the bus on the way to chinatown.

huua: eh hr if there are 2 girls in the room, 1 average looking and 1 pretty one, which will you talk to?
hr: erm, i'll talk to the pretty one if she looks approachable and if she had eye contact with me. (that's first time impression, thats what i'll do before knowing both of their characters.)
aa/huua: no wonder you always talk to us la, cause we pretty right?
me: i was LOL.

continued...

aa: i'll talk to the average looking person, cause i will feel less inferior.
huua: sam, that means that if nobody approaches you, that's good news for you la! cos that means you are pretty. (based on aa's reply) haha. FAINTS.

anyway dont feel offended im not saying anything, just feel that u all abit thick-skinned. HAHAHA. but thats them, and thats what they are. im used to it already:) heh.

friends dont judge you for they accept you for who you are, though sometimes it gets a close friend to tell you the truth about you, and you would rather that to happen than becoming the topic of others behind your back.

2 months to genting trip:)))))))) work hard everyone!

2008-10-15T00:46:00.007+08:00

happy 18th birthday koh yhih huua!

i know u love the mango cake. i chose it one okay! headed straight to the cake shop after sch with xf and cw. haha. it wasnt really a surprise cos i think u know, but anyhow w or w/o surprise, its quite the same la, lol. so yup.. all of them came down around evening yesterday. managed to do some maths, with alvin's help. lol! i almost made u vomit blood, cos i asked u like 5 times despite ur clear explaination.

we felt bored and a little unproductive (haha cos no mood already), so they watched 4bia on youtube and talked about ghost stories, and made themselves really scared.. haha. they almost wanted to stay, but decided to cab back. so only xf stayed over.

i want fish leong's concert dvd.

2008-10-13T18:31:00.003+08:00

graduation's on fri and upon seeing how we the guys have grown closer, i do feel a little sad, i dont deny the fact that life would definitely be different if i wasnt in sr (that was what i've always thought and it still holds for me now), yet i cant disregard the fact that they do make my life better. well "friends" come and go, they're definitely another bunch of ppl i probably wont forget.

i remembered how me and bryan used to chat on msn to gossip about ppl until my chat history has exceeded like so many times, and how he's changed to a super mugger ever since the beginning of this year. the change's so obvious. how chongwei ran with me for 10rounds after which i could run myself and even passed 2.4. his eccentrities and everything. and how i kept "bastard-ing" junliang for not paying class fund and soon it became a everyday thing. whateva he spoke i just went against him, even after he cleared his debts. LOL. and xue feng was the first person i talked to on the first day of sch, and he's always hated me for my lousy taste for food. finally he's convinced that i've recommended the right stuff- YAMCAKE. haha. and of course not forgetting the walking out of the sch gate everyday and chongwei waiting for my bus to come before he goes home and junliang as my bus/mrt mate.

plus lennon who've joined us this year and always refusing to pay class fund (even at this point of time, haha i should trust that he will pay by this week), he has brought us laughters. and smarty jinbin whom i can always ask homework and questions during tutorials/lectures. he's the best person to relate for homework. last but not least linqiang who's my pw group mate which i've always felt damn "scared" of ( i dont know why, it's has nothing got to do with pw) its just that i dont dare to talk to him in class also hahahaha. (apart from collecting class fund) junliang said lq told him that he felt the same way towards me too.

the list's never ending, theres so much things that i remembered about, every single person, every teacher/lecturer that've taught me.

i guess its normal to feel this way after being with them for a long time. friends always start from strangers, i really felt damn weird on the first day of sch, having no friends at all. this journey has been mentally challenging. trying to adapt to the new environment etc. perhaps i should be glad that it's all coming to an end soon.

2008-10-12T22:40:00.002+08:00

tuition today and yesterday was very unproductive because i was unprepared. been very slacky these few days, watched "a walk to remember" today before tuition. bought it the other day when i went to MJ with junliang,lennon, cw and jb for $6.95. FYI, its a vcd. lol. very touching and romantic. i didnt know it was so nice, and the soundtracks too. yhih huua came over to study at 5plus. and alv didnt came cos he had to attend some wedding. i've come to the conclusion that my productive hours are after 9. lol. revised some stats, and thats all we did.

2008-10-11T01:03:00.004+08:00

today i was woken up by xf's call like early 10plus? then went central to meet him and buy food.
after which they joined us later. today wasnt exactly productive, but still we learnt how to tackle certain maths questions. this time im really growing fat, cos i really see myself being horizontally challenged after not having pe for longer than a month. we took this photo for fun lol, it was NOBODY's birthday even though we claimed it to be alvin's bday. so lame right. well studying has made me grew closer with them, it's with ppl like them which make life so purposeful. although i've no idea who was the person who tagged, i've got to admit that im different in sch. say anything u want, i doubt im even anyone close to you. the fact remains that we've only crossed paths and there's nothing else beyond that. and i cherish those around me.

2008-10-10T00:55:00.007+08:00

LOVE THIS SET OF COMPREHENSIVE ECONS NOTES TO THE MAX. the $20 spent on photocopying was definitely worthwhile.

the stuff that Mrs Sim said can ALL be found in this wonderful holy book. eg spillover effect, beggar thy neighbour policies, assumptions etc

WE CONQUERED GRAPHS!

AND SOME LOCI

alvin u're such a great and patient maths tutor, we need u all the way till A's! i doubt i can ever ask anyone WHY IS THIS THIS AND NOT THAT. they probably ask us to memorise EAT SHIT AND DIE. lol! it feels good to have understood/recap something that u should long ago.my maths has improved ever since u guys came over to study. haha. maths today wasnt good, did self marking and i think i scored like 50. but its an improvement:) and we had kfc AGAIN for dinner. i hate my phone's camera, it's 5MP and the quality sucks.

and yes i need confidence in my studies. goodnight everybody.

2008-10-08T23:34:00.006+08:00

just came back from jerm's bday celebration.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY!

hoped u enjoyed our "surprise", doubt it was a major one though. something would be amiss if we didnt celebrate your bday right? HAHA. what a great friend i am right, i turned up for your bday celebration despite having an exam tmr, u must be touched. LOL! it was a really filling meal at fish and co. the environment at glass house fish and co's really nice, the atmosphere and all, very suitable for holding mini celebrations. and we had NUTELLA ice cream cake from island creamery, it was quite sweet in my opinion. the flavour was kind of refreshing, its quite rare to have nutella ice cream cake with gummies and jelly beans on it. after dinner, we walked around town for abit and we FORCED jeremy to drink alcohol. it was 8.4% alcohol only la. haha. omg and i felt damn tired after having just a sip and i lao sai after i reached home. lol!! his face and ears turned red after finishing it. haha. we all thought that u were abit drunk. anyway i bet u've definitely enjoyed ur 18th and we all know that u would want to visit london for ur bday wish. it's impossible for now, but it will be soon come true.

LONDON IN 2010!!!!

2008-10-08T13:46:00.003+08:00

super bad mood today=( cos of econs. i dont know why i cant finish the paper. 14marks just gone down the drain, and it wasnt cos i couldnt do. really really sad. i felt like giving up halfway during the paper cos i knew that i couldnt finish no matter what. theres so much to write, sometimes i wonder what im writing. almost everyone finished the paper, and that's not the first time, i just cant manage my time. for prelims and mid years, the same thing happened.

and sometimes i cant understand why things that werent taught to us were mentioned, and its like they EXPECT us to know. yes they do go through in lectures, but it's not in our "comprehensive" notes.

2008-10-06T14:51:00.003+08:00

and yes the paper i fear MOST is over!! i think i tried my best.

the questions for compre was quite tough, but the passage came out in favour of what i studied. it was alot of regurgitation of examples and arguments. wasnt anything that i came up with myself. lol. i wrote 2pages for AQ which is not an easy feat for me,considering the fact that i've not scored beyond a pathetic one for my AQ before. maybe that was a blessing in disguise, cos if i attempted science for p1, it would be much worst. and i did the essay on happiness, content wise i'm uncertain about whether i can pass, but the use of language was pretty alright, that is to say, i think i can score perhaps 10-11/20.

time to hit the books for ECONS and CHEM!!!! i can rest my mind in peace and tell myself that im just gonna try my best tmr and not to worry unduly. i just couldnt help it cos GP is really really really important that i need to secure a pass. i need a good night's sleep.

2008-10-05T19:22:00.003+08:00

it's been real long since i last blogged. met up with aa, yao and sam on weds. wanted to go kbox, but sam couldnt make it. had pastamania for dinner, and haagen daaz. we wouldnt have patronized haagen daaz if it werent for the fact that sam had a $25 voucher. i kept complaining that the scoops are frigging small, HAHAHA. not value for money, for quality wise obviously its excellent.

quite excited for genting trip!

BUT the thought of sitting for gp tmr is really giving me the jitters. i really hope i can do what i can tmr. bet i cant sleep tonight..

2008-09-22T19:23:00.005+08:00

haven been exercising much. went jogging with aa, and this time round, it was really a slow jog. i think my stamina dropped slightly, but nvm, at least i still got exercise! though our efforts have gone to nought because we had MACS, it was still worth a run. haha. i sound so contradicting. haven seen them ever after steamboat, hopefully next week can go kbox! it was quite funny just now while we were waiting to cross the road, ppl thought i extort money from aa. LOL! cant wait for them to come and study on weds and fri, if not i very nua. haha, but no choice, i should go read up some stuffs even if i dont wanna do work. it's quite stressful nowdays but i feel happy. maybe i just feel fortunate to have close friends who care for me! deep down i know myself better than any1 elses does, even though i appear so cold blooded in sch, i didnt chose to be like this.

2008-09-20T13:24:00.005+08:00

yesterday was quite productive! xf alvin and huua came to study. intially i was afraid that either one of them would feel awkfard. it's like it's normal if u feel uncomfortable with your friend's friend. but they clicked pretty alright. alvin made us laugh cos my mom boiled water for 3 times. thats how big a water tank-er he is. HAHA. life seemed to have change for me somehow. this time i maintained my stand firmly that i wont go out anymore till the A's are over, not unless it's necessary. im gonna dedicate all my energy and time into studies right now and nothing else. i'm glad that they understand, they've always been my closest friends that i can relate to. i know that they believe i can do it! and i will.

is laughter the best medicine? if it's, i need lots of them. omg im getting more and more random. (possibly influenced by chongwei) lol. anyway doubt i will be like this in sch, i still think im more of an introvert. life's good cos studying makes me happy and there's alvin to be made a mockery so we can laugh. lol.

and we did try doing gp yesterday, it failed. the two essay outlines to be done are really tough. i wonder if it's risky if i mug for selected topics, but given the short span of time i have, theres no other option. i begin to see a glimpse of hope for physics and maths, now i need that for gp.

one way for guys to destress: vent your emotions by screaming into pillows! lol it works! crying is a sign of WEAKNESS. just learnt it from teenage mag, bought it cause aa said something about us that was so sweet. (if she regards us as bestfriends) haha.

2008-09-16T20:02:00.007+08:00

really damn tired, went swimming with junliang and the rest. sch today was alright, im quite guilty that i skipped physics consultation. i got pissed with econs, cos i couldnt do my essay outline. alot of people didnt prepare, and we got a lashing down from mrs sim early in the morning. quite unfair la. i did cos i feared i would be punished by writing TIMES 2.

anyhow yesterday i've experiencing dizzy spells and im totally not myself. mood hasnt been good after prelims, largely due to the fact that i failed gp. i know i should spare a thought and not remind those who failed. there's no point crying over spilt milk, but it's been affecting me alot, cos i know im relatively stable for my h2s, other than physics. perhaps i shouldnt worry unduly.

EVIDENCE: (from yh's blog)
Anyway, hanrong was ultra funny today. Cos he was like super tired and super gong gong.

scenarion 1-(door bell rang)
yhihhuua: think its your father come back liao

hanrong:maybe its the kfc then we win ten thousand dollars.this is like the ultimate funny+ random

scenario 2-yhihhuua:what's 3 minus two?

hanrong: erh five

scenario three-hanrong: how to draw parallelogram.alvin and i nearly died laughing.

cos hanrong looks damn frustrated with his econs, which he tried doing for like dunno how many hours and in the end still cannot complete.

i felt drunk, those who had seen that stupor state of mine might think that i have had a drop too much. it was uncontrollable. and i had a bad dream. i dreamt that i scolded my mum or smth.

glad to have them studying with me all the way till A's!

2008-09-14T01:14:00.001+08:00

maths is really driving me crazy. I HATE MATHS.

i've only myself to blame, and no one else. i overestimated myself.

2008-09-08T20:24:00.004+08:00

im utterly disappointed with my results,especially for gp. chem was better, i did manage to clear, though i expected myself to do much better. i wasnt really prepared for prelims i asked myself, many of you might not believe. im seriously slacking way too much. i think the image that i potray is that im still a fairly hardworking student, but i guess im not. u guys have probably not seen me going out/playing continously for few days without bothering to do work, and when i start work, i gotta rush all the way till the extremely late nights.

told mum my results, she just told me to buck up for gp. she didnt really blame me, but i know i've far higher expectations of myself. just because she didnt chose to reprimand me doesnt mean i would sit back and continue to see my own grades dropping. i need to do something about this, anyone would because this concerns our future. at the very least, my hopes of passing chem werent dashed. it gave me some sort of assurance, i should've started earlier.

2008-09-06T23:09:00.004+08:00

collage from jerm's blog.

hmm fri and sat was spent with JAYS once again. yesterday, they came over at 10plus. then my mom needed some help and they offered whatever IT knowledge they had to my mom. haha. after which we went chomps for tau huey. i ordered chicken wings and it didnt came. lol. so had macs instead. the bus ride back was so spooky. omg. cos we thought we were lucky that we could catch the last bus, not having had to spend money on cabfare. the bus kept looping and it came back to chomps, and we were the only ones left. it was like 1am. then we were wondering whether if there was even a BUS DRIVER. lol!!!! so much so for scaring the wits out of ourselves. i think we were really imagining things. after that, caught like 10mins of penelope before i got knocked out.

today, we slept all the way till 1plus, almost 2. LOL. super lazy day. watched penelope, this time we finished it. then had lunch, my mom cooked. it was just some simple foodfare. lol. and munched on chips,chocolates. practically snacked throughout the day. didnt know that rotting can be so relaxing. haha. finally a day away from the noisy buzzling in town. the holidays are really holidays for me. i just managed to start work. i'm in the midst of 2007 chem paper 3. im gonna complete my homework no matter that. cos that's the least i should do, otherwise im really gonna do badly for A's at the rate i play.

this is one of the shortest, yet most sastisfying and fulfilling holidays i ever had, spending so much time with very very very close friends. i can really feel the love from them and also my family. it's like having found a purpose in life, they give me the strength to survive every single day in sch. and i've learnt to take things in my stride. college life, though boring and unhappy it may be for me, it had taught me alot of life lessons. i dont really care if im isolated from everyone anymore, 2 more months and everything's over. casting the rigour of the A levels aside, sometimes it's not the journey that's tough, but its the people that make it seem so unbearable.
i wonder...............

i cant believe i conquered my fear.

2008-09-04T22:33:00.007+08:00

4bia was not really scary, i dont think so. i rather watch scary movies then to sit super rollercoaster rides, and those make ur heart drop kind of rides. im very very scared of those. so today was spent catching up with yhih huua, not aa, though she met us. lol. and it seemed like we didnt met for years. hahaha. first, the day started with huua coming over to study, it was unproductive la. i did only one question of p3. lol. she like totally gave up after reading organic, and went to use the comp. so typical of her. then we walked over to aa's to swim. didnt swim much, slacked like hell, spent most of the time at the jaccuzzi. after that, we went to coffeeshop to eat. LOL!! the person selling the mixed veg rice say we looked like siblings. hahaha, then headed to ps to watch movie and homed. and it was funny when they said that everyone looked pretty/handsome cos it was super dark inside the theatre. chem tuition at 11 tmr, then going to sch, and chilling with them tmr night. im kinda sick of going out, if not for 4bia, i would have gone home. dont think im going for the twenty people dinner tmr. LMAO. hope my getting sick of going out will last till the A's are over. LOL. ENDURE.

2008-09-03T19:18:00.002+08:00

haha this looks much nicer compared to the one taken with aa's sis's bf's cam issit, i think so. hmm. anyway failed to go running today! haha, been pretty lazy to move also. i like staying home nowadays. but tmr must go swimming no matter what, even if it rains! today woke up at 10plus, felt that it was very early, and went back to sleep. then i woke up at 145. after that tried doing chem mcq, and did only like 20. watched tv all the way till now. hope i can be discplined enough to do at least the A level 2007 paper 2 or 3 for tonight. i feel damn bad, everyone's mugging like hell, and here i'm enjoying like nobody's business. it's as though A's are over, i dont know how i can feel so relaxed, no sense of anxiety. wait till prelim results are out, on the other hand, cant wait to see how i fare for econs and chem. i placed high stakes on them. if i could see a D for both, it'll motivate me. please let my dream come true.

2008-09-03T00:06:00.003+08:00

forever happy with them around

im so full now, and yet tired. gonna sleep after this post. hmm so today went sch for like just 5mins to complete the survey. well i gave my honest replies. LOL. after that, sat in lib for awhile with them. then went to meet aa and jerm to buy food for steamboat. steamboat was so shiok, i ate the most, esp the salmon hahaha. could see that my parents and sis were a little uncomfortable with them around, but i think it was alright in the end cos we still ate together. i must thank mum though, for putting in so much effort into the preparation and washing of the dishes and everything. definitely hope to have more steamboats/stayovers in the future!!

gonna go running tmr with aa, and dinner after that. thurs gotta go sch to do some work, and maybe swimming after that with her and huua. friday/sat stayover! chomps+chilling+stay home watch movies+ macs breakfast. i cant believe im sick of town now, like going there almost every week. i rather stay home nua, watch tv. tutors save me. i need help with phyiscs=((

shall upload the remaining photos when jerm and yao send me. till the next post!

I CAN HARDLY CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT.

2008-09-02T00:38:00.006+08:00

ha stayed home today alone! parents and sis went msia, i didnt want to tag along. too tired from shopping, its like everytime also shop. so i would rather stay home and slack, to have some personal time. haha, a day went past just like that. watched 430 and 530 channel 8. lol. 430 was yi nan wang. ROFL. the show's damn long winded, i rmb watching it ever since sec 3 or 4, and it's still showing. lol. i sound as though the A's are over. this kind of show also watch. hmm then i started tidying up my room at 9, for 2hours. it's only halfway done, im gonna continue tmr. cleared lots of useless fulscap papers, pw,chinese stuff, sch notice, and j1 exam schedules. and also SPA books, notes. its like what for keep all those. i've been too lazy, finally i packed my room today. what a sense of accomplishment!!!!!!! it looks much tidier, and nicer to sleep. i also get to breathe in cleaner air. my mom've been nagging since last year for me to clean up my room. now its because they gonna come, everytime it sounds like a big deal when they come. gotta clean my entire house, get ready in advance, buy food and all. but its all worth it. haha.

and the human race yesterday was quite tough for me, especially after the 6km mark. i was like struggling all the way, cant wait to finish every subsequent km, so i would get closer to the finishing line. im so glad that though i ran much slower this time (because the timing proved to be so), i knew i tried my best. i didnt gave up, saw lots of ppl walking, like they are so fit and they still walk. probably they cant be bothered as long as they finish within 1h30mins. hmm and i completed the 10k in 1h15mins40secs. was 15mins slower compared to the wIll run. i wonder if it's we haven been running more than 5km, or was it really tougher. it seemed so hard, every step i ran, i had to push myself, tell my mind that nothing's impossible, that i've done it, and doing it again would be nothing tougher. i was abit unwell cos i was perspiring, then there was the cold wind blowing towards me. it's like hot and cold, hot and cold. im lucky i didnt faint, otherwise it would be embarassing. lol. the wIll run was comparatively easier, the ground wasnt as hard, and i didnt perspire. there wasnt tunnels that we have to run up and down, it was flat.
my legs were so wobbly after the race, cos i sprinted the last 100m, ran as fast as my legs could carry me.

and i so HATED THE CONCERT. i was like so tired alr, and i thought the concert would be nice. imagine standing there for close to 3hours after running 10k. it was like what for, my eyes was closing. everytime someone finish singing or rapping or beatboxing, i clapped loudly cos i cant wait for it to END. it wasnt until boys like girls which started performing that i felt better, the songs were NICER. it's not dont want to support local talent, i know if we were the ones performing up there, we wouldnt want singaporeans to react this way either. BUT... oh well.
there were lots of ipod nanos given away, but didnt got hold of any. lol. SR emerged champion for sending the most no of participants that completed the race within the time limit. haha. not bad, got free publicity. and i cant stand some ppl. when posters were being given out, and it so happened that both of them got hold of one side, no1 would give in. then they rather TEAR IT AND NOT LET ANYONE HAVE IT. omg so selfish. it's like those tv dramas, where those desperate guys/girls constantly trying to destroy one's happiness, by not letting them to be the one they want to be with.

omg maybe i watched too much tv, i hope i wont ever be so selfish. sometimes its too scary, u know it's beyond control when u want something so badly, that u cant even recognise who u are already urself. u would do anything, even if it means spoiling friendships or kinship. anyway yes yes steamboat tmr woot!!! i think i deserve a good meal for running 10k. haha=)

2008-08-30T23:40:00.004+08:00

before thanksgiving: at serene's island creamery. i love the sinfully sweet horlicks ice cream.

here i am again! im still sleep deprived, though not from sch and tuition but from going out. watched 12lotus with my family, was alright. i survived the show, it didnt turned out to be as bad as what i heard. but 881's far more touching. hmm tmr's nike human race, hope i can just complete it. went carrefour for grocery shopping and got all my supplies stocked up.. cant wait for monday! and steamboat on tues. just received an offline msg that there would be a bbq class gathering (4E2) on 19 sep. lol. i think i should just go and not give it a miss. HAHAHA. i can imagine tmr to be the last day of hols, time really flies when we're enjoying. sometimes i rather sch start, so my mind wont sway and i would stay up late to complete my undone work, motivated by gulit and fear.